S.H.A.R.E

2011.录

2011-12-30T01:23:00.001+08:00

First Quarter of life will be end on the day after tmr , and coming , will be the glorious 3/4 ‘s moment !!

Wanna arrange my path and make myself clear on what I want on future

I know , the main dish I want is Happiness, Gratitude , Satisfaction

The Goal that want to achieve will be?

1) Become bread-whinner for Family ( Now n progressing )

Progress : 25% Severity : Mandatory

2) Buying own house ( 2 years )

Progress : 5 % Severity :Mandatory

3) Healthiness ( to maintain a more toned up + younger body )

Progress : 30 % Severity : High

4) Love Life ( Please God , please , can start ASAP ? I waited so long )

Progress : 1 % Severity : Mandatory

5) Career : Find own passion that can gain extra income ( can be kickstart on 2012 ? ) beside the main stream job ( object C? )

Progress : 25 % Severity : High

6) Study : Continue on Master after manage to start buying new house and have enough income ( after 3 years )

Progress : 5 % Severity : Nice to have

7) Invest on own Vegetarian + nice Café + self provide organic vege ( learn to grow vegetable )

Progress : 0% Severity : Nice to have , timeline : After 8 years

8) Become volunteer in places that needed ( after gain the house + financial freedom , the first reward to myself ? ) for 6 months?

Progress : 0%

Had overwhelmed with the work + practice , 2 hot potato on hands…

Shall develop myself with different skill instead …. 2 years of cow’s and attitude

training should be enough from now.. Viewing UNICEF link , the scholarship + etc

etc link, really think that I can do more than this to the world…

I shall find a link that can make all these happen… Hmmm.. Hmmmm…

today im terminator

2011-12-19T12:06:00.001+08:00

sorry bugs… is time for you to get out of my life …..

Im really deterministic , and don`t ever come back to us!!!

I really mean it ! I really cannot take it any more !!!!

随遇而安

2011-12-02T03:10:00.001+08:00

最近，不知道是否是幸福表起了作用，还是越来越老,对身边发生的事情越来越看开，

虽然不至于说时刻处于开心快乐的状态，却是真真实实比之前豁达，很容易为了很简单

的事情觉得开心，快乐！可以为了能追韩剧，有时间娱乐自己，而处于亢奋的状态，

看到帅气又已经是熟男的宋承宪，我最爱的韩国女星，金泰希演的连续剧，就一直可以

在粉红色的状态里，哈哈，虽然真的不太觉得公主的戏好看，但是他们在戏里的互动，

让人莞尔，对我来说是我唯一抗压作用的方法！

可以为了因为能准时下班赴约看戏，而为自己鼓舞了整个星期；可以因为有一点空

档，而立刻约朋友们出来，而我那班form6 的朋友，就是那班怎样都会entertain我的

人，总是会回应我，而让我时刻都觉得自己很幸福，

～这，当然归功于Hanying啦，提醒我，想做的事情，就应该努力的去实行，即使很多

时候我都会身不由己，一天除了睡觉的时间，都在面对IPVPN的DATA，可能有时可以在

上班前约朋友出来见面，或者在深夜追击唯一的娱乐，韩剧，连到佛堂也变成奢侈的活

动了，虽然现在的状态不见得很晴朗，甚少运动，加上工作常有的压力氛围，但是每天

每时每刻都觉得，这是何年何日了，为什么就不能游戏人间啊，为什么要这样虐待自

己，环境处境糟糕，更要敞开心，勇于去接受，不能因为环境的糟糕，而自艾自怜，生

活，时刻都充满生机，转机，转眼，这些都会过去，不要这样就错过自己的时光，这些

都是在那一天短暂的休息，整理的结果，已经看清什么对自己重要，完成工作上的任

务，就要储蓄力量，准备好身体，面对明年的终极任务！改变，Thrist for changes!

每一天都这么鼓舞自己，因为知道有祂永远在守护着我，因为知道，什么对自己是重

要，而且会因为做了而觉得很有意义的事情！I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve

forgiven my mistakes, 希望能持续保有现在的状态到这SHIT project完成！不，应该

是持续在我这短暂的人生里～让自己平衡，比外在的因素，比一切重要！

2011-12-01T02:47:00.001+08:00

songs on 2.45am morning after back from work,nice song to share :)

Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet
They say a few drinks will help you to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if i go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I'm face to face that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting
She'll take me back for sure
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh sometimes love is intoxicating
Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting
Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing

隧道

2011-10-09T09:35:00.001+08:00

抬头望着屋外的阳光，蓝天，白云

大自然依然无私的爱着我们，依然为新的一天，划下令人充满希望的面貌

听着《晴天》、《你听得到》，让自己有时间整理回忆

为最近做过的事，看过的人，听过的歌做一番整理

已经有很久没有整理自己的思绪，

还小的时候，多愁善感的我会想太多，让太多阳光，空气，水都与自己绝缘

上了中学，开始思索为了什么而活，因为找不到答案，就好象从来都不会回答

Subjective 的问题，太过适应填鸭的生活，而迷失自己，因为做人的原则就是什么都要

做到最好，不知道自己要什么，就是一个人生最大的污点，觉得人生很晦涩，整个回忆

的画面都是灰色，因为爱钻牛角尖，觉得自己太过险恶，太过不知悔改，但是同时，又

要在众人面前做最好的自己，表面上是个会到佛堂的乖小孩，

事实上，每每无人的时候，就对自己与世界绝望，因为骨子里，我就是没有方向的灵

魂，骨子里我只会为达到别人的期望而活，骨子里就对灰暗过于看重，洁癖似的搽拭污

迹，却让污迹吞噬其他时间

一直到6年前，相信是上天听到我的祷告，让我接触舞颂大自然的美妙，

整个人突然茅塞顿开，觉得人生除了黑白，还是有其他因为折射出来的颜色，

觉得既然来到人世，就要好好跌倒，好好享受人生的过山车，或者既然上了这旅程，

就要好好享受旅程的景象，转个弯，就有意象不到的景象，尤其是在旅途遇到的人,

总会让自己再一次觉得旅途十分好玩

6年不停的做着让自己开心，可能也让别人开心的事情，想在人生最灿烂的时光，献出

最灿烂的自己，忙碌的面对，却因为慢吞吞的我，觉得喘不过气，没有好好让自己

调整步伐，为现实，为梦想做个调整，因而每天总结自己的一天时都会渴望休息。

又是身边的人，让我开始去听自己小时候喜欢聆听的歌，从来没有承认自己喜欢周

杰伦的歌到无可救药，但是回望过去十年的光景，隐约都有他的歌，让听觉带我漫游

时光隧道，星期天早上，在忙碌的日子，整理自己，让自己有的喘息，让自己能沐浴在

上天的大爱，沐浴在阳光，氧气，水，蓝天，白云，血浓于水的相处，沐浴在美丽音符

与文字间，默默祷告自己不要因为忙碌，而忘了为心田的小幼苗浇水，只有踏实，用心

对着大千，才不枉来这世上走一回啊

還是要幸福

2011-10-07T02:10:00.001+08:00

Hope you doing well ya , the wish to you ^^

Looking for changes

2011-09-24T12:48:00.001+08:00

Actually after back from Taiwan , like usual , first month will be like losing something and then will continuously losing grip and slacking until times come to back to the busy trail…. but Watever happen around wouldn’t make me feel excited and feel need excitement everday is first time happen to me this year…

After back from the trip ,or actually be accurate , the Raya Break , start to indulge myself in endless work again , which kind of scary me , as I tot myself wanted looking for a new job

and Be frank , I start to feel numb and bored towards the project…

wanted to update resume and find a new job …

but on-going job had been an excuse to me d….

Try my best to adjust my path , try my best to do some changes in my life , but yet , I still like the old me .. didn’t change as I already stay in my comfort zone and doesn’t feel like wanna do changes – LAZY excuse…

Anyway , these few day had rewarded myself to hang out with YT n Liann, as well as HanYing and chatime ,

and oso Reading book time …

橘子book.. easy digested love story .. Then out of sudden, flashed a thought , feel like If I wasn’t me , but someone else , as in different experience of life ,

who I will be ?

The someone else wouldn’t be someone cool , great , or popular , but an ordinary person , people that like the people around you , how it would be?

Guess the excitement always there as long as you never let go your imagination ,

or it just another routine of the life curve , when you busy enough , and always

accurately counted the step you take or have enuff contradiction in your life ,

would always hv a threshold , to make you revise your steps~

FYI – Suz’s ROM is on 10th Oct , PeiYie Convo on 9th Oct, Pegan coming back

soon ,Yany’s wedding on 1st Oct, be prepare .. I knew you might do something for

it…

Why so tired?

2011-08-29T14:42:00.001+08:00

I need to regain my energy …. Please

back

2011-08-21T23:38:00.001+08:00

tired.

needed rest ..

slept for 10-20 hours..

body + mind still in tired mode..

need rest n energy badly …

I tell myself.. start from today , I will try my best to be silence…

n focused on wat I wanted to do …

* Pray hard *

忠.诚

2011-07-16T10:49:00.001+08:00

这半年一直因为工作上的原因很压抑也很怀疑自己是否越来越现实，而且越来越喜欢抱怨，会为了小事很计较，并且因为某人的所做所为感到很气愤，很不平不满，总是在抱怨为什么有的人就可以用嘴巴去掩盖自己没有认真工作的事实，原以为在这公司里每个人都是认真工作，每个人都是想尽力把PROJECT完成，原来不然，很多人都只是想靠嘴巴浑水摸鱼过日子，只是自己很幸运之前跟的人都认真看待工作，或是跟到与自己都一样的认真对待工作的同事/楷模，与此同时，也担心自己会逐渐被现实同化，同流合污…变得不像样，或变得唯利是图、只会为了往上爬，不理身旁的人～抱怨过、哭过、日日睡不着过、跟不同的人倾诉过，终于用半年时间去平伏自己的不平不满～同时也因为这件事，知道自己的不足，以及自己没有宽敞的胸襟去接纳不同的人，或与自己处事个不相同的人。当我看似失去的同时，我也得到了，忠诚朋友的耳朵，父亲的支持甚至还会用我说的每句话鼓励回我，我真的超感动，当爸这么做的时候，在我最落魄，最倒霉时，不理工作，直接飞奔我的公司为我打点，处理车抛锚的一切，也因为这样而与他有难得的父女之谈，才知道爸爸还记得我跟他哭诉时所说的话～这世上肯定没有人会像爸那样疼爱我的了--而且在接二连三的倒霉事迹里，我竟然可以那么冷静，我真的应该感谢让我痛苦这半年的人～～其实，整件事情最难的就是怎样坚持忠诚，以先天的心去看每一个人或对待每一个人，即使他所做所为让我痛不欲生，即使他真的落到一无可取之处，这是我毕生的志业，毕生要达到的境界，我也很希望自己能保有自己的做人原则，对待身边的人、事、物，要忠，要诚，而且坚持到底～

加油!你可以的因为还有很多更你一样在奋斗的人啊，唯有每个人都立足先天，才能真正世界一家！！当你累的时候，要记得这句话啊！

This is not we wanted..

2011-06-20T01:45:00.001+08:00

Singapore girl wins Commonwealth essay prize!

You will be amazed at the maturity of this 15-year old girl. It's worthwhile

taking 5 mins to read this essay.

A 15-YEAR-OLD Singaporean, competing against 16- 18-year-olds, has won the top

prize in a writing contest that drew 5,300 entries from 52 countries...

In the annual Commonwealth Essay Competition, Amanda Chong of Raffles Girls'

School (Secondary) chose to compete in the older category and won with a piece

on the restlessness of modern life.

Her short story, titled "What The Modern Woman Wants," focused on the conflict

in values between an old lady and her independent-minded daughter.

'Through my story, I attempted to convey the unique East-vs-West struggles and

generation gaps that I felt were characteristic of young people in my country,'

said Amanda, who likes drama, history and literature and wants to become a

lawyer and a politician.

Chief examiner Charles Kemp called her piece a 'powerfully moving and ironical

critique of modern restlessness and its potentially cruel consequences'. The

writing is fluent and assured, with excellent use of dialogue.

Amanda gets (S$1,590). A Singaporean last won the top prize in

2000, said Britain

's Royal Commonwealth Society, which has been organising the

competition since 1883. Singaporeans also came in second in the 14 to

15-year-old category, and fourth in the under-12s. Other winners included

students from Australia , Canada and South Africa.

===================================================

What the Modern Woman Wants...

By Amanda Chong Wei-Zhen

The old woman sat in the backseat of the magenta convertible as it careened down

the highway, clutching tightly to the plastic bag on her lap, afraid it may be

kidnapped by the wind.

She was not used to such speed, with trembling hands she pulled the seat belt

tighter but was careful not to touch the patent leather seats with her callused

fingers, her daughter had warned her not to dirty it, 'Fingerprints show very

clearly on white, Ma.'

Her daughter, Bee Choo, was driving and talking on her sleek silver mobile

phone using big words the old woman could barely understand.

'Finance', 'Liquidation', 'Assets', 'Investments'... Her voice was crisp and

important and had an unfamiliar lilt to it.

Her Bee Choo sounded like one of those foreign girls on television. She was

speaking in an American accent. The old lady clucked her tongue in

disapproval......

'I absolutely cannot have this. We have to sell!' Her daughter exclaimed

agitatedly as she stepped on the accelerator; her perfectly manicured

fingernails gripping onto the steering wheel in irritation.

'I can't DEAL with this anymore!' she yelled as she clicked the phone shut and

hurled it angrily toward the backseat. The mobile phone hit the old woman on the

forehead and nestled soundlessly into her lap. She calmly picked it up and

handed it to her daughter.

'Sorry, Ma,' she said, losing the American pretence and switching to Mandarin.

'I have a big client in America . There have been a lot of problems.'

The old lady nodded knowingly. Her daughter was big and important.

Bee Choo stared at her mother from the rear view window, wondering what she was

thinking. Her mother's wrinkled countenance always carried the same cryptic

look.

The phone began to ring again, an artificially cheerful digital tune, which

broke the awkward silence.

'Hello, Beatrice! Yes, this is Elaine.'

Elaine. The old woman cringed. I didn't name her Elaine. She remembered her

daughter telling her, how an English name was very important for 'networking',

Chinese ones being easily forgotten.

'Oh no, I can't see you for lunch today. I have to take the ancient relic to

the temple for her weird daily prayer ritual.'

Ancient Relic. The old woman understood perfectly it was referring to her. Her

daughter always assumed that her mother's silence meant she did not comprehend.

'Yes, I know! My car seats will be reeking of joss sticks!'

The old woman pursed her lips tightly, her hands gripping her plastic bag in

defence. The car curved smoothly into the temple courtyard. It looked almost

garish next to the dull sheen of the ageing temple's roof.

The old woman got out of the back seat, and made her unhurried way to the main

hall. Her daughter stepped out of the car in her business suit and stilettos and

reapplied her lipstick as she made her brisk way to her mother's side.

'Ma, I'll wait outside.. I have an important phone call to make,' she said, not

bothering to hide her disgust at the pungent fumes of incense.

The old lady hobbled into the temple hall and lit a joss stick, she knelt down

solemnly and whispered her now familiar daily prayer to the Gods.

'Thank you God of the Sky, you have given my daughter luck all these years.

Everything I prayed for, you have given her. She has everything a young woman in

this world could possibly want.

'She has a big house with a swimming pool, a maid to help her, as she is too

clumsy to sew or cook. Her love life has been blessed; she is engaged to a rich

and handsome angmoh man.

'Her company is now the top financial firm and even men listen to what she

says... She lives the perfect life. You have given her everything except

happiness. I ask that the gods be merciful to her even if she has lost her roots

while reaping the harvest of success.

'What you see is not true, she is a filial daughter to me. She gives me a room

in her big house and provides well for me. She is rude to me only because I

affect her happiness. A young woman does not want to be hindered by her old

mother. It is my fault.'

The old lady prayed so hard that tears welled up in her eyes. Finally, with her

head bowed in reverence she planted the half-burnt joss stick into an urn of

smoldering ashes.

She bowed once more. The old woman had been praying for her daughter for

thirty-two years. When her stomach was round like a melon, she came to the

temple and prayed that it was a son.

Then the time was ripe and the baby slipped out of her womb, bawling and

adorable with fat thighs and pink cheeks, but unmistakably, a girl. Her husband

had ticked and punched her for producing a useless baby who could not work or

carry the family name.

Still, the woman returned to the temple with her new-born girl tied to her

waist in a sarong and prayed that her daughter would grow up and have everything

she ever wanted.

Her husband left her and she prayed that her daughter would never have to

depend on a man. She prayed every day that her daughter would be a great woman,

the woman that she, meek and uneducated, could never become.

A woman with 'neng kan

'; the ability to do anything she set her mind to. A woman

who commanded respect in the hearts of men. When she opened her mouth to speak,

precious pearls would fall out and men would listen.

She will not be like me, the woman prayed as she watched her daughter grow up

and drift away from her, speaking a language she scarcely understood.

She watched her daughter transform from a quiet girl to one who openly defied

her, calling her laotu, old fashioned.... She wanted her mother to be 'modern',

a word so new there was no Chinese word for it.

Now her daughter was too clever for her and the old woman wondered why she had

prayed like that. The Gods had been faithful to her persistent prayer, but the

wealth and success that poured forth so richly had buried the girl's roots and

now she stood faceless with no identity, bound to the soil of her ancestors by

only a string of origami banknotes.

Her daughter had forgotten her mother's value. Her wants were so ephemeral, that

of a modern woman. Power, wealth, access to the best fashion boutiques and yet

her daughter had not found true happiness. The old woman knew that you could

find happiness with much less.

When her daughter left the earth, everything she had would count for nothing.

People would look to her legacy and say that she was a great woman but she would

be forgotten once the wind blows over, like the ashes of burnt paper

convertibles and mansions.

The old woman wished she could go back and erase all her big hopes and prayers

for her daughter now that she had looked out of the temple gates. She saw her

daughter speaking on the phone, her brow furrowed with anger and worry. Being at

the top is not good, the woman thought, there is only one way to go from there –

down.

The old woman carefully unfolded the plastic bag and spread out a packet of

beehoon in front of the altar. Her daughter often mocked her for worshiping

porcelain Gods. How could she pray to them so faithfully and expect pieces of

ceramic to fly to her aid?

But her daughter had her own gods too, idols of wealth, success and power that

she enslaved to and worshiped every day of her life.

Every day was a quest for the idols, and the idols she worshiped counted for

nothing in eternity. All the wants her daughter had would slowly suck the life

out of her and leave her, an empty souless shell at the altar.

The old woman watched the joss stick. The dull heat had left a teetering grey

stem that was on the danger of collapsing.

Modern woman nowadays, the old lady sighed in resignation, as she bowed to the

east bone a final time to end her ritual. Modern woman nowadays want so much

that they lose their souls and wonder why they cannot find it.

Her joss stick disintegrated into a soft grey powder. She met her daughter

outside the temple, the same look of worry and frustration was etched on her

daughter's face.

An empty expression, as if she was ploughing through the soil of her wants

looking for the one thing that would sow the seeds of happiness.

They climbed into the convertible in silence and her daughter drove along the

highway, this time not too fast as she had done before.

‘Ma,’ Bee Choo finally said. 'I don't know how to put this. Mark and I have been

talking about it and we plan to move out of the big house. The property market

is good now, and we managed to get a buyer willing to pay us seven million for

it. We decided we'd prefer a cosier penthouse apartment instead. We found a

perfect one in Orchard Road

. Once we move into our apartment, we plan to get rid

of the maid, so we can have more space to ourselves...'

The old woman nodded knowingly. Bee Choo swallowed hard.

'We'd get someone to come in to do the housework and we can eat out – but once

the maid is gone, there won't be anyone to look after you. You will be awfully

lonely at home and, besides that the apartment is rather small. There won't be

space. We thought about it for a long time, and we decided the best thing for

you is if you moved to a Home. There's one near Hougang – it's a Christian home

and a very nice one.'

The old woman did not raise an eyebrow.

'I"ve been there, the matron is willing to take you in. It's beautiful with

gardens and lots of old people to keep you company! Hardly have time for you,

you'd be happier

there. You'd be happier there, really.' her daughter repeated as if to affirm

herself.

This time the old woman had no plastic bag of food offering to cling tightly

to, she bit her lip and fastened her seat belt, as if it would protect her from

a daughter who did not want her anymore. She sunk deep into the leather seat,

letting her shoulders sag and her fingers trace the white seat.

'Ma,' her daughter asked, searching the rear view window for her mother. 'Is

everything okay?'

What had to be done, had to be done.

'Yes' she said firmly, louder than she intended, 'if it will make you happy,'

she added more quietly.

‘It's for you, Ma! You will be happier there. You can move there tomorrow, I

already got the maid to pack your things.'

Elaine said triumphantly, mentally ticking yet another item off her agenda.

'I knew everything would be fine.' Elaine smiled widely; she felt liberated.

Perhaps getting rid of her mother would make her happier...

She had thought about it. It seemed the only hindrance in her pursuit of

happiness. She was happy now. She had everything a modern woman ever wanted;

money, status, career, love, power and now freedom without her mother and her

old-fashioned ways to weigh her down...

Yes she was free. Her phone butted urgently, she picked it up and read the

message, still beaming from ear to ear.

'Stock 10% increase.'

Yes, things were definitely beginning to look up for her and while searching for

the meaning of life in the luminance of her hand phone screen, the old woman in

the backseat became invisible and she did not see her in tears.

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saw tis in FB… Wat is the meaning of successful if you lost the people that love you the most in the world by treating them badly?

看开

2011-05-19T02:45:00.001+08:00

这两个字从我是多愁善感的少年的时候，已经在不断学习着，从来就不曾间断过

25 ，已经到了成人的岁数，性格还是像孩子一般，从来就没有长大过，

以前，很多觉得放不下的东西，已经开始慢慢放手，

以为自己已经长大，已经学会放开，其实不然，接踵而来更多事情让我更加觉得为什么

自己那么没用，那么丑恶，那么自私，那么吓人，对自己失望，

虽然已经不会像以前那样专牛角尖，虽然已经会懂得疼爱跟珍惜自己，身上那个无尽宝

藏，但是还是很气愤自己为什么就是那么小心眼，为什么就是还会介怀那小小事情，

为什么就不能用另外一个角度去面对自己的遭遇，除了抱怨，我还是在抱怨，其实抱怨

当下，我已经讨厌自己，很生气自己那么没有肚量，那么脆弱，无知，幼稚，迷昧，

但是就是没有想到，这是一个让我学习的过程，让我学习祂的肚量去包容一切，去改变

一切，去把我身上所有的陋习给挑出来，给好好磨平。如果，连你对你自己都失望，自

己都放弃了，还要上天帮助你?？可笑～感恩所遭遇的一切，感恩丑陋的自己让自己长

大，加油，今天的你比昨天的你更看开了，你要继续加油！！要对自己更有希望，因

为你有祂做你的靠山！

《孟子》二章:鱼我所欲也

2011-04-18T23:40:00.001+08:00

【鱼，我所欲也；熊掌，亦我所欲也。二者不可得兼，舍鱼而取熊掌者也。生，亦我所欲也；义，亦我所欲也。二者不可得兼，舍生而取义者也。生亦我所欲，所欲有甚于生者，故不为苟得也；死亦我所恶，所恶有甚于死者，故患有所不辟也。如使人之所欲莫甚于生，则凡可以得生者何不用也？使人之所恶莫甚于死者，则凡可以辟患者何不为也？由是则生而有不用也；由是则可以辟患而有不为也。是故所欲有甚于生者，所恶有甚于死者。非独贤者有是心也，人皆有之，贤者能勿丧耳。
一箪食，一豆羹，得之则生，弗得则死。尔而与之，行道之人弗受；蹴尔而与之，乞人不屑也。
万钟则不辨礼义而受之，万钟于我何加焉！为宫室之美，妻妾之奉，所识穷乏者得（我欤？乡为身死而不受，今为宫室之美为之；乡为身死而不受，今为妻妾之奉为之；乡为身死而不受，今为所识穷乏者得我而为之。是亦不可以已乎？此之谓失其本心】

--Thanks mr. TLC , 看了這原文，更加覺得魚與熊掌能兼得，只要取義，我的生命已能延續，因為我已經發揮我的生命之光, 也是文章中的義，何謂不可兼得？只視君如何體悟～孟子是在2400年前所發的這篇演說，能流傳2000 多年也是因為他老人家解釋得非常詳細，人是要舍生取義，既然如此，我就更應該捨掉自己的休息時間，作出更多利益群眾的事情，這是我的歪理，我不曉得我撐得了多久，我只知道我要繼續努力，珉敏,加油 :p ～

P.S : TLC , really thanks for your comment and your support , ask me to call you.. you know i hampir tears drop when u send tis message to me in FB…

Love you as always ~ take care and hope you can manage to cope your study and keep fit plan~

challenge ?

2011-04-08T00:49:00.001+08:00

你宁可永远后悔，也不愿意试一试自己能否转败为胜？

解答：恐怕没有人会说：“对，我就是这样的孬种”吧。然而，我们却常常在不该打退堂鼓时拼命打退堂鼓，为了恐惧失败而不敢尝试成功。以关颖珊赢得 2000年世界花样滑冰冠军时的精彩表现为例：她一心想赢得第一名，然而在最后一场比赛前，她的总积分只排名第三位，在最后的自选曲项目上，她选择了突破，而不是少出错。在4分钟的长曲中，结合了最高难度的三周跳，并且还大胆地连跳了两次。她也可能会败得很难看，但是她毕竟成功了。她说：“因为我不想等到失败，才后悔自己还有潜力没发挥。”一个中国伟人曾说；胜利的希望和有利情况的恢复，往往产生于再坚持一下的努力之中。

——做人，何妨放手一搏。

When i asked myself this question , i realised that im timid to facing this…

Try so hard to adapt and take the challenge happily,

but end up , healthy deteriorate, parents worry…

The thing now is, i dont know what i want , even though i had out of havoc for 10

days

Is not like i didnt enjoyed tis life experience, but at the same time , i always

question myself..Does it worth it?If 2012 really the end of world ,Am I will choose

this route back , or try something else?i`m really clueless…. seeing Pegan bravely

step up to fulfill her dream , im asking myself… AM I doing so?

Balance is hard , when you have the body in this mirage , what can you do?

Appreciation Note to Evonne

2011-03-17T03:11:00.001+08:00

Dear

Thanks a lot for supporting me to cry

and spread out the things that strangle me for these few months ( from January till now ) and really sorry that had make you spare ur sleeping time for a useless fren like me….. Hope you will not feel extremely tired tmr…..

For you and people around me , i must moving forward so that you guys would not worry about me…

God always treat me well by surround nice ppl around me …..

Thanks dear , i feel safe and have more courage towards my decision already

“You are not origin, you are pieces of photocopy from the people around you…”

绝处逢生.永不放弃

2011-03-02T14:45:00.001+08:00

The backpain experience had grant me more time to think ,

Had grant me the courage to facing the next obstacle

Had grant me the lights and direction

I understand that everyone had been granted an angel when they come to the world

but never had this strong feeling until i had ultimate experience towards this theory with the vulnerable body~

The angel had come to me n feed me with all her love , thanks a lot mom ~

to make me feel that all the prayers been answered …

I must fulfilled my ultimate dream no matter how hard the road in front ,

because I never been abandoned…

great day

2011-02-15T11:16:00.001+08:00

well… i had pass thru the 24th valentine wif sleeping happily on bed as insomnia on few days back~

n wake up happily today cozz can go meet leng lui’s today without been drag by work…

woohooo~~

previously ,in preaching class ,heard one line, how was the world look like it will be depends on your heart…

Juz now after fetching my beloved sis from LRT , and park my car out my house,

look out from car , I spot the sign ,

The sign of love from God

I can feel love from God from the breeze , tree, flower , sky, cloud, my lovely old crappy car … there is rhythm dancing around , when i look up into sky ~~

Tis is the sign of relieve , the best is coming , i can feel it…. Ya.. there will be a lot of work coming , but i believe i can do it wif the love of God .. When 2011 begin , i had some doubts,

but now.. feeling better, can restart my new page , restart my engine dy~

P.S. Insomnia because having the feeling guilty of FFK.. n relieve now because saw fren’s PD photo … Is the best that i had missed out , but at least their mood didnt spoilt by me… relieve … promise , would been extremely cautious , n hope u girls would not left me behind cozz my level of FFK…

diet again

2011-01-28T03:21:00.001+08:00

28 /1/2011…okie… i going to start my crazy’s diet from today… aim to look healthy tis year~

“习惯了得到，便忘记了感恩”

2011-01-17T02:57:00.001+08:00

what a great quote , taken on the meant to be INSOMNiA nites… i shall stop complaining and try my best to work this out~as not everyone can get what they wanted, i shall grateful towards what i having now~

11.1.11

2011-01-11T01:26:00.001+08:00

Faye had sang for tis song~ OMG OMG.. i really juzz cant deny tht i love the nice voice~~eason’s voice oso been toned up wif ages~these vocals are among the genre of songs tht i like..

time flies, i think is time to collect the nice song in 90’s d as it was one of my childhood’s companion… cant deny , really old d~

手紙・アンジェラ・アキ

2010-12-18T14:15:00.001+08:00

梦想—

那一年，你悄悄地敲开了我的心房

感谢勇敢的你坚持下来,我会继续走下去~~ 台湾版的歌词触动我现在的状态

繼續走下去繼續往前進
路旁有花心中有歌天上有星
我們要去的那裏一定有最美麗的風景

沒有地圖人生只能憑著手上的夢想 Oh~
循著它的光曲折轉彎找到有光的地方

不要辜負心裏那個乾凈的自己
痛到想哭的時候就讓淚水洗掉委屈
我們要相信自己永遠都相信
來到這個世界不是沒有意義

原版的歌词：

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敬啟者 : 此刻讀著這封信的你
現在在哪裡做些什麼呢?
十五歲的我有著無法向任何人訴說的煩惱如果是寫給未來的自己的信的話
想必一定能坦率的說出口吧此刻快要認輸快要掉下淚來彷彿下一秒就要消失的我
該相信誰的話繼續往前走呢? 只有一顆心不斷的破碎、崩壞在痛苦之中活在當下
活在當下
敬啟者 : 謝謝你的信
我也有話想告訴十五歲的你自己究竟是誰該朝何處前進
只要不斷追問就能找到答案波瀾萬丈的青春之海雖然險惡
將夢之舟朝著明日的岸邊前進吧此刻不要放棄不要流淚
彷彿下一秒就要消失之時只要相信自己的聲音昂首闊步向前走就好
大人的我也曾有過受了傷而難以成眠的夜晚
苦中帶甜活在當下人生的一切都有意義
Woh...
所以不要害怕讓你的夢想成長茁壯吧
La...La...La...
Keep on believing
La...La...La...
Keep on believing
Keep on believing
Keep on believing
此刻快要認輸快要掉下淚來彷彿下一秒就要消失的我
該相信誰的話繼續往前走呢? 啊此刻不要放棄不要流淚
彷彿下一秒就要消失之時只要相信自己的聲音昂首闊步向前走就好
不論何時面對悲傷只會逃避的話是行不通的展露笑容努力活下去吧
努力活下去吧敬啟者 : 我祈禱現在讀著這封信的你能過得幸福

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知道嗎我總是惦記十五歲不快樂的你
我多想把哭泣的你摟進我懷裏
不確定自己的形狀動不動就和世界碰撞
那些傷我終於為你都一一撫平
那一年最難的習題也不過短短的幾行筆記
現在我卻總愛回憶回憶當時不服輸的你
天空會不會雨停會不會放晴
會不會幸福在終點等著我和你
會不會是我忘記還能勇敢地去淋雨
我們繼續走下去繼續往前進
繼續走向期待中的未知旅行
感覺累了的時候抱著我們的真心
靜靜好好地休息
這些年我還算可以至少都對得起自己
謝謝你是你的單純給了我指引
遇見過很多很多人完成了一些些事情
你一定還無法想象多精彩過癮
誰說人生是公平的它才不管我們想要怎樣
很感激你那麽倔強我才能變成今天這樣
我們繼續走下去繼續往前進
看這條路肯讓我們走到哪裏
我們想去的地方一定也有人很想去
我們都不要放棄都別說灰心
永遠聽從刻在心中那些聲音
感覺累了的時候請你把我的手握緊
沒有地圖人生只能憑著手上的夢想 Oh~
循著它的光曲折轉彎找到有光的地方
Lalala Lalala Lalala 那年的夢想
Lalala Lalala Lalala 人要有夢想
勇敢的夢想瘋狂的夢想
繼續走下去繼續往前進
路旁有花心中有歌天上有星
我們要去的那裏一定有最美麗的風景
Oh~ 都不要放棄都別說灰心
不要辜負心裏那個乾凈的自己
痛到想哭的時候就讓淚水洗掉委屈
我們要相信自己永遠都相信
來到這個世界不是沒有意義
我們做過的事情都會留在人心裏
會被回憶而珍惜
有一天我將會老去希望你會覺得滿意
我沒有對不起那個十五歲的自己

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So.. what next?

2010-12-07T00:44:00.001+08:00

--In your life, there will at least one time that you forget yourself for someone, asking for no result, no company, no ownership nor love. Just ask for meeting you in my most beautiful years. ---

Yes.. I did, so what next?

Dec is here

2010-12-01T02:03:00.001+08:00

OMG.. time pass so fast.. now ody December, ARGGGGHHHHHH

okie… 8 more months to go TAIWAN,n the dance still stuck there,but i believe we

will sort out..

nvm,but then 3 more months going to BACKPACK in Korea wif eliecia, itenary oso

hvnt come out and most important i hvnt get my DSLR / PEN…..okie… i hope tht i

get the hot skill bonus, then , tis issue

mayb solved….so

tis one oso nvm…

MOST IMPORTANT thing , 2 more month , then

CNY,and i will grew older , Y SO FAST? tell me Y????????

time pass so soon , n there is a lot thing i would like to do… i hope , i wish ,

i can do.. i muzz moving faster, to achieve my goals… *GOD BLESS*

nice song to share ~

When….

2010-11-15T01:00:00.001+08:00

juzz now have a chat wif my dear sis ,

we are talking abt the feeling after the pre-event today~

some interesting thought flash through ,

That, if im choosing another route ,how was it will be?

haha tht poem again , the route not taken

Sometimes , human just love to look back , and thinking that IF we back to tht

time, we can do better , but did us think another way round? tht if you take another

route, we can do even worse or have a so called even “BAD LIFE”, lol…

Ya, tht`s y, we shud always appreciate wht we have,

even though when ppl ody dun hv faith to us , cozz we always ffk for other

obligation..

n those dun hv faith to u , will always welcome you , n accept wht you have~

I love my life~

everyone should watch

2010-11-06T01:19:00.001+08:00

one n half hour , is time to think wat can you contribute to the beloved home ~~

Happy Deepavali

2010-11-05T16:19:00.001+08:00

Today is the day to receive brightnesss~

celebrated by doing clean up at home…

and here n there task~

wish all my lovely fren enjoy their off day~

体验

2010-10-28T03:03:00.002+08:00

是，最近没什么特别，

究竟是因为麻木了，还是已经开始失去生活轴心～

不晓得，但是，还是很平和的过生活，

没有埋怨，没有痛苦不能入眠的夜晚，

有的只是一摞摞未完成的工作，已经开始不去介意，也不去想

因为，想的只是逃，逃向自己的梦幻国度？

但是我相信，每次都有很忙跟很得空的日子，

也真的要学习享受体验～

the messenger

2010-10-12T01:37:00.001+08:00

i believe tht everyday , there will b a bright light to show us~

an experience , always the sms from gods~

tell us how to live our life….

slow down…

breath…

workout..

more than words

2010-10-05T02:35:00.002+08:00

sometimes... everything that occur in your life is just more than words~

the most important thing is how u observe on it~~

just wanna let you know...

we will always be there for you~~

no matter wat happen~

alto...we always busy with works n own obligation~

电影、电视、书籍

2010-09-17T02:56:00.001+08:00

哈～难得空闲看电影，昨天跟前天看了2 部电影

让人爆笑，却还是带点说教的印度电影，提醒我，一定要学会诙谐看待任何事物～

初恋红豆冰，妹说有点below expectation ,我觉得还好，因为阿牛成功把马来西亚独一无

二的情景搬上电影院～把马来西亚还难得保有的情景拍摄下来，再过十年，可能看不到那

种乡下的景象了。RAYA就静静的烂（懒）在家里陪爸爸妈妈，难得回来的弟弟，没有怎样

积极生活，却看了刀大的等一个人的咖啡，开始想在自己的生活找到一些乐趣，就很像阿

拓一样，发掘身边拥有超人意表的朋友，其实每个人都是超人，如果我们每天都以不同角

度去开拓世界，就好像摄影这样，不同角度，不同光线，不同的频道就会有不同的效果。

开始觉得要用自己步伐去迎战生活节奏。为了工作，没有好好陪父母，

没有自己的私人空间，甚至当上自己的健康，的确只有傻瓜才会那么义无反顾～是时候

聪明一点了，因为我只是平凡人～

电影，书籍都是现代人普遍上的反射～

电视，就好像每天发生的情景，但是却充满戏剧性～

原来，人就算已经有多么吓人的科技，但是所要求的还是在生活里找到小乐趣～

夜晚临睡的舞蹈以及讲故人已经变成我们的电视机，电脑，书籍，电话，音乐来

慰激日复一日的劳作～

back to track

2010-09-02T01:29:00.003+08:00

ya, independence day had passed, now is autumn , september..

is time to slow down the pace, n linkin park had release their album, so excited...wahaha , tht`s

y can blogging now...n thinking of my long pending DSLR /PEN

Ya.. as your complain , i had update my blog ...

as usual, im busy wif holy and work together n gather~

finish the camp on last weekend, thrilling n excited~

learnt something n felt something whc not been felt as before..

start to get to know the feeling of the ppl tht stand in front of us~

i juzz cant imagine how God felt while waiting us heading back home...

Everyday is a new day

2010-06-30T22:09:00.001+08:00

Today when i drive to work.. i smile, bcozz feel happy..

The earth is round, and everything will be changing,

suddenly have the this awareness , and i told myself to have a nice mood and enjoy

happiness everyday…coz there always be changes ^^

then only can handle the uncertainty everyday wif a big smile n sunshine emotion…

^O^ BIG SMILE to everyone , have a nice dayyy yaaaa~~~

休息是为了走更长远的路

2010-06-21T10:22:00.001+08:00

那天，跟老板申请了假期，因为开始累了，

是时候为自己的时间做一个调整，是时候让自己有更充实的时间做分析

来迎战接下来的工作与使命，比别人少休息时间，少个人空间，这个是我个人的选择。

无怨无悔，但是超人也有休息的时候，菜鸟的我需要暂歇来充实那近乎干枯的心，

这我比任何人还清楚，如果只是工作，我还可以应付，但是在加上肩上的使命，

我这个二打六是有点难～～

是时候来盘算跟策划，清楚什么是最坏的打算，也开始模拟了心理准备。

清楚自己要的是什么，为自己做最好的打算。

休息，是让疲惫的心得以充实，

来欢喜地迎战我热爱的工作与使命，

最终使命- 开心的迎接每一天：）

2010-06-20T01:25:00.002+08:00

Love this photo so much.. Simple and direct..

Happy Father's Day,

I love you , My dad~~

Thanks ffffound, for this great picture

Get Used To..

2010-06-09T00:44:00.001+08:00

Tht day , i found out tht.. My body start growing fatter.. OMG..

means my body is used to the hypertension env dy… Is time to start the long

planning but never implement activity – Exercise d…

anyway.. FIFA is juz around the corner..

planning to get myself have a work life balance from now..(not bcoz of FIFA plzz)

as tis is a Marathon , is time to keep pace now.. N had my life back..

I think i get used to work till late n slept late..

viewing fb in midnite for daily update of my frenn…

listening music in my collection in the old white BENQ

get used to busy life, havoc ,chaos and try to being helpful…

Juzz back from dinner wif YT.. she seems like undergoes the depression of working

n get adapt to new env again..She asked me dun worry as tis is juzz temporary

depression..she need someone to complain to…but im enjoying to listen to her.. as

i dun really hv free time..n i feel grateful.. as i still got quite a number of fren

while i KEEP FFK n being busy…i think they oso get used to my style d…like how my

body get used to the env n start being fat again..wanted to plan a lot of outing

but.. seems like time is a quite tiring FACTOR tht refrain these outing get

through..Get used to it , get used to it..

June is here

2010-06-02T02:17:00.001+08:00

OMG… SO FAST…. TIME PAST…

Ladies in cyberjaya ody leave the PLACE….

N i missed the chance to c eliecia wong bcozz of responsible?

when i looked back, i have so less time for myself tis half year.. SIGH

Like ex-colleague said : when u in the environment.. You will do till tht late w/o any notice…BUT

I miss the time i photoshopping / take photo (whc i dun really had took serious photo b4 )..

miss the time i read all the book i want to

miss the time i’m surfing and doing nothing…

miss the time jogging in University.. alto, i prefer to walk…

AIM : working life balance on coming days~

mumble on weekday midnight.. YAWN.. im so desperate to hv my own timeeeeee….

休息

2010-05-22T14:23:00.001+08:00

life is all about music~

工作的时候很压力，音乐是唯一抒发的出口

休息的时候，音乐也是其中一个不可缺少的管道

抬头看着外面的天空，

想着你是一个怎样的人，就跟你遇到的人一样吧，

有缘遇到好人，进而慢慢变成好人？我在偷笑：）

这个星期，虽然还是在晚上的时候会工作，但是却不用回去TM，想到都开心～

rest piece

2010-05-22T14:01:00.001+08:00

Well, actually last week i actually wrote 2 blog in a roll… but blogspot deny the 1st piece after i update another piece of blog… Sigh, guess i can only write a blog in a roll rite?

Tis weekend is BUM, company trip kind of thingy.. not going in last minute cozz found out im not been register , anyway, is a good thing, but , but my colleague still drag my time till 9.30pm yesterday n make my plan vanished. Guess my senior is right, if not go n hv funn, u still will b dragged wif work.. *SIGH* but anyway, i really get a reason to escape from work today, crossed my finger, my colleague did not see tis piece , i think shudnt b…

Juzz send my car to get its recovery treatment, n watched gossip girl to gain my life back….

like tis drama cozz it really show the real life n reality’s complexity of human relationship (alto is showing rich brat’s life) but can’t deny it ,

somehow, i will face tht kind of situation , is juzz tht we always deny those~

i cant refrain myself to admit tht in somehow , i wish to be a bad ppl , somehow wanna find some excitement in my life.. tht`s the true reason i dun wanna go BUM as im afraid i will turn into someone tht TOO excited for her freedommm…n do something stupid~~ i hv a feeling i will…

Not everyone is perfectly a good person, even myself choose to b a lazy snake n ppl not punctual in front of ppl , i knew , deep down im a bitch , somehow a person wif a lot of jealousy and bad thoughts …. juzz like tis drama so much n the peaceful weekend so muccchhh

Pieces of sharing

2010-05-15T12:01:00.001+08:00

To some one that you know who you are … Just to share , nothing else

“ 喝酒的女人，是没男人疼的女人。哪有男人会让自己的女人在外醉酒。
喝酒的女人，是受过伤的女人。在现实生活中一次次跌倒，满腔热情换回满心伤痕。
喝酒的女人，迷恋酒精的麻痹，失去了酒精的麻醉夜不能眠。
喝酒的女人，心里有太多的苦楚，心底有许多许多的寂寞。
喝酒的女人，爱上了不该爱的人，她们穿过杯底可以看见所爱男人的眼泪。
喝酒的女人，是因为想掩饰所有人前的不快，她们只有醉酒才是解脱。
喝酒的女人，只有酒精才能明白她心里最需要的是什么，最想念的是什么，最割舍不下的又是什么。
喝酒的女人，知道自己想要的是什么，却不能去追求。
喝酒的女人，害怕伤害了身边人的心，却让自己的心千疮百孔。
喝酒的女人，不是淑女，她们从来不会在喝酒时矜持。她们会借着酒精高喊：男人没一个好东西。
喝酒的女人，是矛盾的，喝前想醉，醉醒了又后悔。她们永远都不会相信：借酒消愁愁更愁，这句话。
唉。。。。喝酒的女人。
一般女人不喝酒，女人不喝一般酒，喝酒女人不一般。
女人为爱活着，爱也是女人喝酒的唯一理由。
爱。。。。喝酒的女人。
倒的是酒,喝的是情,醉的是爱. ”

等

2010-05-08T10:36:00.001+08:00

这星期，每晚都工作到很迟，让老妈子在家担心，等待放工的我

我何其不想早点回家，但是有些东西往往就是与你的想法背道而驰，

友人的生日派对没法参与，听文说，她很伤心，

凌晨1点才拖着疲劳的身心回家，

打电话过去后，生气自己也没办法去陪她，因为没力了

现在，还赖在家里，不愿准时加班，

因为工作，没得跟那班天使度过周末

介意，

因为还会对这些事情放在心上，

几时，才能随遇而安，

开心地面对任何吉凶祸福，荣辱得失，游戏人间？

几时，才能放开，

尤其是埋藏在心底里的话

尤其是鸡毛蒜皮，但却改不了的习惯

尤其是在你心里留下影子的人…….

坚持。信念

2010-05-02T19:25:00.001+08:00

我有一个梦，

一个许多人都怀疑的梦，

其实就连做梦，也没想到自己会与这个梦有缘。

昨天，

看到，听到，感觉到

一群年轻孩子，一同拥抱这信念，

霎那，看见当年的自己，

那年轻的热忱，

为那麻木的心，注入了动力，

告诉我：“要坚持，不放弃，KEEP GOING”~

Nothing will change the real you

2010-04-26T01:02:00.001+08:00

is been a while after working with accenture. The workload there had proven im a Workaholic. In somehow , i admit tht…but tis weekend something thrilling on, kids class! I love to help out in the class, cause tht always my dream to continue the class.. to hang out with kids, n let them knew the bless of god … like sis lee hwa said, bcozz u come from there…haha , i guess indeed… Had missed couple of class though ,as dunno the class been held, but the first experience had confirm my attendance on every sat (if non need to rush work)~~

Listening Daughtry now , thanks to my precious Brother ,

Rock always my fav kind stream of song, no matter pop rock , metallica rock ,alternative rock, tht`s a fact i cant deny , although im not tht angry child anymore , more likely to listen yiruma’s kind of music / jazz music nowadays, but im still feel thrilling when listen to nice rock song~

Last Friday went to accenture SWF community day , enjoyed those session with kak zaliba (a nice kak – only one year elder than im n ody have kids…)n other nice colleague who i not really know them…. AND I broke a pencil with my finger base on physic’s logic n willpower + listen to a story PEACOCK in Penguine Company b4 back to TM n start endless task.

The story is like tis : A peacock has been hired by penguin company to bring changes to penguin’s habit. Peacock definitely will gain ppl’s attention when it get hire as all the ppl in penguin’s company as it so different with them. Its performance get recognise by the upper level.Anyhow,its superior giv it suggestion so tht it wont wear so colourful in company as ppl will feel so isolated wif it .To blend with the new company’s culture, peacock had change it colourful’s wear base on its superior advice.

One month later, it superior mention to it again , so tht it can change it big feathers n walk like penguin. To be a better follower , penguin changed according to its superior’s suggestion . It try so hard to adapt to the culture of penguin company .Now come to the confirmation appraisal time, the boss had sounded : “ i thought we had hired a peacock to bring changes to the company, where is the peacock?” Peacock stands out , n get the comment : “Huhh, how come you become like any other penguin ? You get hired bcozz you are a peacock, sorry , i think you should go another company for another try” Yayaya, peacock had so felted, frustrated after its effort to try to adapt to the new company environment and get tis comment , but somehow , it feel release as it can become itself again.

It inspired me somehow and tell me to be who I am , i guess, instead of felt so uncertain to future , n try so hard to fit in the society , why dont juzz take a breath and enjoy the journey of life (i learn tis from tis morning preaching class) as pass few year , i had see myself ……i guess passion always drove you to live ultimately….

P.S : I tot i had changed all these year , but somethow, thr is something will never going to change, something tht really make u who u r , someone tht u really care n love ,n the time that u enjoyed the most .. Cheers and have better day ahead~

bad mood

2010-04-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

Today i FFK someone...

Make me feel bad.. alto i had ody FFK many time...

dun like the feeling to FFK , but sometimes is really Terpaksa

I hate myself for being a person tht always conceal the thing i wanted ,

and fulfill other ppl's request cozz THT is my DUTY...

SAD

diving…

2010-04-10T12:39:00.001+08:00

As i told everyone = (elaine + my sis ).. i`m so active in FB, juzz wanna prove tht im alive…

Ody abondoned my blog cozz i dunno wht can i write here.. well definitely when im moody n feel like

wanna b author, i will post my piece of word, but…. back from bangkok trip… shud b feeling

refreshing…No doubt, is fun cozz really spare my shopping spree.. but i need more… something tht

can inspire me, something like experiencing … as Bangkok really an interesting and unique place ,

whereby can get a lot cultural + living + appreciate + love live experience’s place , not to mention, it is

a shopping paradise…..but somehow.. something is missing , i guess is her freedom time….

4 diff girl , 4 diff thinking , landed in this mystery land on 2 diff time….

1 – looking for herself before going to start her new future (as my perception)

2 – looking for a travel that can make herself happier as the uncertainty of life that make herself feel vulnerable (as my perception)

3 – looking for someone n her dearly fren to peace the busy working’s life (as my perception)

4 – looking for a trip tht can inspire her somehow cozz she had feel tht she been losing her inner self eversince CNY….

Nothing like sex and the city ,did not meet someone special in the trip although is a self organise trip…juzz 3 day’s peaceful shopping like any other days in MSIA ‘s usual hang out…..took not so nice photo…but can sure tht LOMO is fun n interesting…a small break before dive in endless job’s pool…

Anxiety is grew tis week as i notice that im going to b 24 soon… Pray to god , miracle please happen cozz i kind of dun hope to b alone when im old , at least for now, tis is wat i thinking….

Diving in my uncertainty to find long lost inner self~~~

职业

2010-03-20T12:38:00.001+08:00

“生活不曾对她公平过，家里的负担，让喜欢读书的她，为了家计，而走了这条不归

路。人间天堂，什么烂鬼名字，简直就是人间地狱，来的人，只想让他们的兽性得到

补偿，让他们的兽性帮他们忘却生活的重担。为什么会走这条路？命运安排，即使她是

那么的自命清高，上天还是让她以这个身份，来“服务大众”，似乎就是要摧毁他那可

笑的尊严，就连那丁点的尊严，也不要留给她，她也只能阿Q的安慰自己，是多才多艺

的青楼女子，就连她的无名小栈，所写的也是他梦想里的生活，哈，还有人相信她的乱

哈拉，而跟她成为了网友，天晓得他们知道了她的职业，会否还愿意跟她有所瓜葛。

17 岁陷于黄海，处身，就被那无耻的老伯，以他那血腥的金钱交易了，用那笔钱补偿父

亲所欠下的债务，爸爸可就好了，这样一跳，一了百了，妈妈因受惊过渡，已经在丹

戎红毛丹打顿了7 年，弟妹这重责大任还有那屁股债，只有落到她身上。

这7年里不能说没有优质的性体验，但是，那也只是逢场作戏，顶多，顾客因为听了他

的遭遇，出于怜悯而给多了小费。曾经也渴望有《风月佳人》般的童话故事降临在她身

上。但是现实究竟是现实。

7年在地狱打转，终于还完那逼债，还有一笔钱，足够供应弟妹上大学……

今天，是她回到那比地狱还现实的人间，人海茫茫，她能寻觅到她的他吗？天将降大任

于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨…… 就在她耳朵萦绕着 …”

性工作者一直都是她想要写的题材，希望明天能继续把这长篇继续写下去，《风月佳

人》音乐一直从在耳机旋绕着。。。

new life

2010-03-13T01:16:00.003+08:00

start work : around 10 am

lunch time : sometimes wif fren , some times wif colleague, sometimes wif my working lappie..

can drink water as much as u can.

can go toilet as much as u can , as long as u organise n finish ur work....

back home : 10 - 11pm tis week >___<>

ppl : multinational,i get to work with 2 brazillian , 2 aussie, 1 american on the 2nd week of working n learn a lot of new thing every week!

CROSSED MY FINGER

, i found my balance between life + work

Things to do today

2010-02-09T17:41:00.001+08:00

1. Make Someone Smile

2. Make Someone Laugh

3. Make Someone Cry (out of too much laughter)

4.Tell Someone “I Love you”

5. Find a flower , and let it know how beautiful it is.

6.Look a friend in the eye and tell him/her “Thank you”

7.Think of something to write for this

8.Be Awesome

I shall tell myself abt this 8 things to do everyday ^O^

春雨

2010-02-05T10:07:00.001+08:00

又病了，多谢雨先生，

究竟是人老了，免疫力降低了，还是心的病开始蔓延到身体？

原以为，它在慢慢康复着，原来，也只是自己欺骗自己～

今年，又要跨入24岁这个关卡，

还记得自己12岁为自己设定的目标以及要做的事情，还蛮多的事情都没有达成，

比如说- 学做面包，比如说谈恋爱………但是上大学，寻觅好工作等的愿望都做到了

倔强的我，是时候安排，设定我接下来5 年，10 年，或者是12年的目标了

有些东西，真的不能顺其自然，这是我24岁的感慨。

是时候安排接下来的旅程了，有了之前旅程安排的经验，

相信你也知道什么东西可以计划、安排、达成，什么东西是可遇不可求～

加油，做一个明智，有计划的旅人～～

smell

2010-01-30T11:36:00.001+08:00

Hari ni hari thaipusam, wake up from a terrible dream .. alto i dun rmb wat is it abt ….like usual, open PC as regular act , n straight away open music~ ha.. music always my life :P n open 苏打绿songs , enjoying their music , n the space tht giving by their music~ suddenly rmb wht

my sis tell me abt , she said, u always change ur mood, prev said u hate one thing… then after a while, u will like tht thing again…. for eg: fang da tong, u had once said you dun like his songs, but tht day u juzz open his album n listen , HELLO, you r not DISLIKE his songs mehh??

I guess , im those ppl .. once , I will said I dun like something, but after time washed, i will changed my mind…..Especially towards good thing~

我告诉我自己要努力地呼吸，我要微笑地过接下来的日子，不管前面有怎样的未知数在等候我～

我想，我应该可以慢慢放下，因为我是出尔反尔的人～

相信，袮总是为我安排最好的路程, so juz let it be ~~

at last , i smell my ans~

"You are far greater than you have ever dreamed of being. And no matter what you are experiencing in your life right now, trust that all is good and unfolding in your best interests. It may not look pretty but it is exactly what you need to learn for you to grow into the person you've been destined to become"

--- took from adele’s blog(sorry tht did not ask for ur permission :p ), which is a great quotes tht inspiring n shud share with everyone i love~

in the middle of~~

2010-01-23T12:45:00.001+08:00

Now only i know, no working at all is the worst condition . You know everyday , i`m doing nothing in office,do nothing in office u tot easy, as time pass so slow , n u need to act like u r working, wat kind of life is this?haizzzz, alto i`m in the middle of searching for new job , but non need to let me b so free guaaa, dear god, i knew u love me…scare i`m tired after work n cannot perform in interview

Dun dare to chat as scare disturb other ppl..during working , can juzz get something to learn – PHP ( if reading n type the command base on the tutorial consider learning) and the worst thing --- no practice on nite …DECLARE BANKRUPTCY whc make me only dare to stay at home on nite….END UP : everynite juzz stay at home and watch the korean drama – hua1 yang4 nan2 zi3, Been influence by lay boon n my mum..>.<

i tell myself, before CNY , i muzz tender resignation , no matter found jobs onot…. cross my finger , i can really ROAR in tiger year~n next job , b prepare, i will giv u my best as i`m ody fall to the condition of nothing to lost!!!

2010

2010-01-11T11:06:00.001+08:00

Happy 2010 ! first blog in 2010 n in office guahhahaha

Last weekend, i`m enjoying my weekend with all the family members bcozz of the special occasion – my cousin sister’s wedding dinner

HAVE FUN with the cousin ! n play GAO GAO wif all those’s cousin’s son n daughter MUAHHAHAHA, they all so cute la~

On the way back to KL , i tell myself, muzz hang out more wif my dear cousin sisters and brothers even life is busy always, n the next hang out shud b on coming CNY~

Finish read a book – the second glance ( jodi picoult ) as well in the back Johor trip

She is indeed a good writer ^O^

planned for more book in 2010 so that can claim in TAX in case i got salary more than 2.5k…

tooth crack

2009-12-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

Joke of the week ,

when i makan jambu batu on 16th Dec , 10 pm++ , i suddenly ate something very weird

tot is seed of the jambu batu …so i juzz ignore it and quick quick swallow it as i`m starving tht time~~~

but after i feed my starving stomach , my tongue felt something weird , thr is something quite sharp in my mouth…

My curiosity lead me to check in mirror , n GOSH ,the last tooth of mine ( suspect is the wisdom tooth ) had crack , n juzz left 3/ 4 there

the enamel had lost~ HOW COME???? Y i will suddenly get cracked tooth?? MAKE me paranoid whole nite as i know tmr i MUST go work to finish tht stupid long pending task ~ the day after , call dental clinic to make appointment while work , n ask fren around to c which dental clinic can make me treat my cracked tooth as soon as possible,…. laine into me Tim’s dentist in TTDI , which i dunno whr is it… but then tmr, saturday , 19th Dec , i `ll still go the dental clinic near my house to squeeze in n treat tht my poor tooth~~BTW , found a new website tht can be my foto’s blog, guahahhaha , so , when you free , plz visit tht side as well , i think i `ll spend more time there from now~ GUAHAHHAA, but dun worry , i`ll still bull shit around here , as , i still love to write essay~^^

m3in.tumblr.com , THANKS~

心病

2009-12-09T10:55:00.001+08:00

我的心生病了～

怎么喂它吃药也不愿意吃……

只能等，

等着它自然复愈，

难受地期盼复愈的日子降临～

Something,sometimes,somehow

2009-12-04T12:47:00.006+08:00

Suppose, i should keep on doing testing , but system DOWN..Well , had finish last big event in this year ,gratitude , everything had done successfully + had learnt a lot of thing throughout this journey n now is December , Gosh , time pass so fast ~~ unbelievable i’m abt to work for 1/2 years dy , this year another big year that i had fun n face the reality … hold hold hold, tis is not i`m going totalk abt, Yesterday nite, i had called swen , n start my long lecturer abt DUN drink too much , bla bla bla, im worry she is rely on it, watever , watever…Wht i really want to said is, as time pass, everyone had diff path , n diff decision, all this something happen in sometimes had somehow make me feel a bit sad…..working on sat which make my penang trip failed AGAIN , n finally had done my haircut rebellion planning , which is an action that i wish to do one years back... ( true fact = hair condition become worse , im worry my tiny n few amountsof hair will drop n bcome botak..) meet up wif yah n wen , really thanks to uncle n aunty (yah'sparents)that had their dinner in mid town of KL, catch up wif them , yah "enjoying" her new job, wen 's hair growth longer, "whee whit" , cant wait to see her in really long hair~~i always wish my fren in great mood n happy,especially those i shared the most when we moody...after yam cha , get a chance to talk wif my lovely sis - choo choo ( who live downstairs )that back from Genting ( she had work in Genting eversince she grad ), we chat under tree and feed mosquitoes wif our fresh blood, i'm juzz so glad that at least i have an elder sis ( alto not my real elder sis ) that can always be my reference , dunno y , when grew elder, the importance of family and relatives become relevants .......

R.A.N.D.O.M

2009-11-14T03:51:00.001+08:00

It’s been a while, ever since i change my blog template ,

didn`t really update my blog.. Hmm.. Well.. for my own information , i had bought a new HP 2 weeks

ago , as my old HP – 3100 DIED .. *SIGH* W705.. I dun really like it (as in i did not love it like my old

3100).. bought juzz for function- 3G + WIFI, but in the end, hp juzz for u to TEXT and receive call, OR

mayb , take photo..juzz endure for another 5 years la…:p but , it does bring new surprise to

me.. haha , photo !! ^^ Took quite a number of pic in KL while i walk to bus stop from client side,

while I play badminton wif lovely lay boon n foong mei on last sunday,

while accompany sis buy her dress for her best fren’s bro wedding ,

i like tis dress--->

<—posing queen >.<

while i`m stuck in traffic jam ,

while i hang out wif wen n Jy (last sat ada

pergi jogging in FRIM , but does not took any picture cozz scare tht 2 woman say i`m insane, i ask

them go Bangsar to hang out , malula, need them to wait tht “princess” to buy her DREAM dress)

Reminder~

2009-10-27T13:24:00.001+08:00

25 October , i learn a lesson ,

to be always in good mood,

Yesterday , i told myself, to be happy everyday

Today , i want myself be cherish n appreciate n wishing

Tmr n the days onwards , will be the same! ^O^

Decided

2009-10-03T11:04:00.001+08:00

Shud be go out to meet eliecia n er jie , but then there is something spiral my minds…

Wish me luck n guts.. i need tis badly to fulfil my decision. Something had hide deep

down within me for 4 years.. hope the moon will on my side *pray hard*

我不是你想像那麼勇敢

2009-09-27T10:22:00.002+08:00

作詞：姚謙作曲：陳威全主唱：梁文音

有時候太堅強笑容卻填不滿眼眶
越是想要隱藏歌聲就唱的更響亮
直到入到心底最深處 OH~
你不要追問我還缺了些什麼
每個人都有夢幸福總站在最遠方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手擁抱
誰的心是我最後一站
我強問我自己現在還沒有個答案
我不是你想像那麼勇敢
多想讓你保護能流淚一場
讓我放下武裝像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上
每個人都有夢幸福總站在最遠方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手擁抱
誰的心是我最後一站
我強問我自己現在還沒有個答案
我不是你想像那麼勇敢
多想讓你保護能流淚一場
讓我放下武裝像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上
我不是你想像總是扮演堅強
多想讓你知道我也要個伴
放下討厭武裝像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麼勇敢

If one day is coming….

2009-09-19T04:02:00.001+08:00

This is a status i put in msn during working~use as tis blog title as i cant find a nicer phase to welcome myself back to Blogging ~

Last few week , juzz going thru havoc weeks , whereby , everyday rely on coffee, working on days and nites, tht`s y , did not have time to blog, to find fren , to rest , to shopping , to bla bla bla…while every week listen to colleague – CFC been go for XXX trip…

BUT , i`m totally enjoy this few weeks “Training”, cozz im still having senior ahead me along this “war”! Last year while having all these havoc weeks, im still studying , therefore , i still can arrange my own time…TUNDA assignment and homework… but now working , there is a lot of 无奈 that you need to endure… Just cant imagine how sis viv , ryan and kent been thru on last time, like they say , “Welcome to their world”but im totally blissful as i know when go thru all these , still having senior / warmate to rely on… :P (I so love to kacau you when i sleepy in work, Ryan boss ^O^)

i`m really enjoy especially the camping day ! So no worry , sis and bro, i can still been use for next time event ! ^O^ Feeling gratitude for this time event , as Adele , had coming back , wif her touching response , and seeing the youngster are enjoying and missing to be together and post the feeling in facebook and blog! Most important ,

During 13th September, i had seeing that every volunteer had try their best and being co-operative to make this celebration success, i can feel family are all around me and harmonious for that whole day ! Even the audience , those elderly , inspired me to be more humble, more co-operative and supportive all the time ~~ I know this journey will be long , i hope i can still survive when i’m old~

There is a lot of words and thoughts in my minds for this experience ~ Just wanna spoke out ,

if one day is coming,

will I be the passenger waiting in platform, and let

every memory with the smilling face

flush with time, and

telling me , there is no regret

How i wish i will be in that dimension with you …

Selamat Hari Raya , Mohon zahir dan baktin (Rest time and Holiday , i’m coming!) 3.57am 19/9/2009

Grow = less time for yourself??

2009-09-04T05:25:00.001+08:00

Had started work , and find out that being in work seriously not as simple as i thought.. isssshhhhh, as hard to squeeze time to do the task on hand which is more important in terms of timeline…

Just now while working on MMSM 60th stuff, had redo my mistake – multitasking , read my old blog + do work…

feel sorry to my boss – ryan n viv la , therefore need to make a confession here…. –________<

find out that last time , i’m really free, although i`m declare myself as busy ….as i can write so much of thing + thinking and even write my own journal that time~

OH GOD , i missed those time.. having time for myself and do the thing i love – read ~ Had been 1/2 year that i didn`t touch any serious piece of book …..but really enjoy when browse thru those words in the older blog.. is like reading own diary , remind and refresh my memory for 2008 ~ Therefore, i had decided , no matter how busy i `m , still will bullshit here , so that i knew what is my emo condition during these kind of period even though juz a line in the BLOG.. haha, need to back to work liao~

Looking forward for 13th Sept 2009 , Learnt and been appreciate while working on this !

无常

2009-08-16T23:49:00.001+08:00

back from Beijing , body getting a bit heaty , 2 days rest still like not enough for me…

The feeling of hatreds fulfill my heart when think of gonna start work tmr….is it bcozz of the work ?

or others, i dunno…

Among all the take i shoot in Beijing , i love tis the most as the gurl willing to let me to take her innocent smile…She escape from my sis , after my sis discover her great smile wif my take… hahaha…..As they say , is fate….I try to take the pic of kids throughout the whole trip, but yet , only tis pic successful… I love a lot of thing in Beijing , but the thing i like the most is the smile and the action of the kids in Beijing ….. I`m like kena Jampi by them…After this trip.. i had a strong feeling –> 当你真的把一些人当成家人，尽管发生一些不愉快的事情，你还是会原谅他，因为他是你的家人，过去就让它过去吧～

LOMO

2009-08-03T02:27:00.001+08:00

I get my VQ1015 d!! hahahhaa.. fall in love when i check the Pic tat we took ( my sis n me la ) The beauty of incomplete , the thrill of getting unexpected result can make a person really getting overwhelming and MAD about it.. cant imagine when the time i really invest in the real LOMO …But then i`m sure , is after i get my DSLR…

first take

Mum’s collection (fisheye effect )

(outdoor VS indoor)

Today is a thrilling day , wif the LOMO experiment take at the end of day and Found my fav model for LOMO – MY mum….hahaha , she so suit for being LOMO model especially in our 70’s and old house , make people have the confusion of in a wrong timespace- 70’s

Lovely Saturday

2009-07-18T11:20:00.001+08:00

18/7 –> A great day , ms Ya Teng bday, hvnt send my bday regards to her…Long time doesn`t update the blog… feel guilty… This 2 weeks been like the days that i adapt to the new environment…. Unbelievable….so fast I `m abt worked for 1 month …. Seriously , i`m learning and learning from this company, when i feel i learnt enuff.. i will jump to a new environment… lol Last sat , going to a fren’s convo but in the morning , i`m happily chatting wif elaine and evonne.. JOHN SCHMIDT… fall in the love with the love story + viva la vi da by him…i`m his FANS now!!! <3 <3 <3

nice mixing of viva la vida and love story and nice recompose of the Love story ! Fall in love with a great compose of songs.. Classic Music + POP + Alternative Rock = TWO big thumb~

Like pegan say, me n her doing the same thing when we working , chatting behind when lecturer teaching… chatting when working… I`m totally a mess when come to chatting..Kind of feel guilty but when no work on hands, i will always find my kaki chatting~ Ya Teng , Ryan , Pegan ….i know i`m disturbing ppl work, but juzz cant stop myself to click on frens name n chatt~~~

LOMO , another nice thing wanna share with fren !! I `m going to have a vq1015 soon as i ody booked it ONLINE…. guahahahahaha, sincerely thanks to sis, as she love it as well… i`m not tht big wash to myself, but if it is share with sis, i willing to waste $$…..WIll shared my take here when i get it.. but i think will be the matters of 2 weeks later as i only have enuff money when salary come~~Found a nice place cafe + cupcakes = +wondermilk thru facebook from fren’s fav adding…. plan to looking for it after work next week / next month….Sat is the only day i can proceed with my leisure and enjoy moment… *SIGH* as ppl say , when got $ ,no time = work, When got time ,no $$ = Study…Stay Tuned for my LOMO take ya… ^O^

Hate to be adult

2009-06-29T05:55:00.001+08:00

Wake up on 4am in the morning,i`m juz realise , i have a lot to spoke out in my mind after 1 week worked in reality…. especially the news of R.I.P . M.J, farewell to legend, the pop king for most of the ppl’s childhood/teenager… when i knew this news from radio’s when drive,i`m actually drop tears, feel sad for the leaving of a king, but the truth reason of drop tears, is because I`m leaving my childhood further and further…M.J’s songs occupied my childhood quite a lot,moonwalk always the fav move of cousin to imitate …. black or white actually the 1st MV i fall with, the changing of ppl’s head on the last 30 sec of the MV always the legend shoots that looks like commercial and yet have its own humour in it…

Never expect i`m actually a kids that don`t want to grow up, just like my favourite book character - little prince… always tot i`m old soul … but the fact is , i ‘m actually quite having funn when i was a kid…

rmb him? he is another legend during 90’s….

and all this cartoon that you always fight with your siblings which 1 you guys wanna watch?

and, the games that u always have it after school / weekends?

the stationery that always accompany you to school and the sweets always make you happy!!! ^o^

I know there are still a lot of late 80’s and 90’s thing not list out… put some here so tht everyone can have a recall abt ur childhood’s thingy….

“HATE TO BE ADULT la” , wat my heart tell me for end of June….

retreat?

2009-06-17T12:22:00.001+08:00

For last 2 weeks, i`m vaporized from my dearly blog, is bcozz i need rest after the long suffer of FYP…but at the same time, i`m actually busy with job interview….i`m admit that i`m lucky , bcozz out of 3 job interview , i get 2 offer.. I`m so flatter , sorry if I annoyed you with the following words, although i`m looking forward the moment of grad for long time , because i need to get out to industry asap to help my parents financially , but… another side of me want a break !!

therefore i seek for advice from all my fren when i get the first job offer, but 99% of friend also advice me to take tht offer, which make me feel annoyed by my own idea of having break….

CONTRADICTION at tht time, but anyways, thanks for the advice , dear all…

Been heard all the bad things of word from friend around me about working, make me really consider what i want to work in future… I hope to have a “searching myself “ trip before really get into the reality … but seems like impossible as I will start work in 22nd June , all this thing is been decide by destiny, again….

Try to work in IT field as I invest so much of money ( my university study ) , to see I can fit in this industry or not… believe onot… i`m actually found myself ( the sound of my heart abt whether i should go IT field first or not ) when i go through all those job interview… althought all those answer hvnt been process ….

I guess , i`ve decide to go to IT industry to discover i`m suit in IT or not… if not, then i will back to this junction again to start my journey on next route again…I hope i can really learn a lot instead of standing there and complaining why I cant choose thing i love to do ( in biology field / education )as my career which is the MOST SILLY thought that trouble me when i pursue my degree~

i want to enjoy the following peace days before i get into work field…counting down for my first day of working and cross my finger, i can do it well in the company~ *pray hard*

(wrote after turn down the first job offer , which make me feel bad cozz i hate to reject ppl!! and waiting for the second job offer letter!)

i`m grad !

2009-06-11T11:17:00.002+08:00

Get my last final result…suck , but this mean i`m grad d!

i waited this moment for so long d~

congrats to myself , and thank GOD!

eager to know why last sem result so suck now~

~Impressed~

2009-05-23T13:18:00.001+08:00

on 19th May , a day that like a new start for many people,

when i browse youtube unintentionally regularly , i saw this extraordinary artist – ZEE AVI(click to her myspace), she is great , n i love her songs n the way she sing very much!!!alto the lyrics is a bit dark , but the way she performing is like tak apa’s attitude , which shud be an attitude of us when dealing with downstream~

I try 2 google her information in internet , it seems like , i had missed many chance to see her performance throughout bazaar , or local’s event…..

http://www.youtube.com/user/KokoKaina ----> this is her subscription link in YOUTUBE , another great applause for youtube !! for being a great portal 2 find latest talent!!cant wait her album hit Malaysia~

so on another day , mong lan saw my msn status, cozz thought is the same artist she saw in MMU prom nite, , but is another great artist –YUNA (click to see her myspace), an UITM law student , shud be one year younger than me, 21 1/2 or 22 this year(y ppl got talent nowadays so young??,lol )she been introduce in 8tv on 22nd MAY – QUICKIE , again , i had become her fan before she introduce in 8TV bcozz of her terrific n unique’s way of singing song n start save $$ 2 buy her EP, lol!!

you can become their fans in facebook by google their name~ lol if you interested

MOST IMPORTANT , i`m impressed with the fact that MALAYSIA is actually full with talent that hidden low profile in their place n yet , they will find a way 2 fulfill their dream n music!!

未来？

2009-05-19T13:44:00.001+08:00

致5年后的自己:

很快，求学生涯就要告一个段落，又要开始踏上另一个里程碑。人越老，就越发现，很多东西不是在我们掌控之内，未来的方向，未来的图形往往就出乎你的意料。

以前想过背包旅行，寻找自己，更了解自己，却因为放不下父母，做不到一个不孝的女儿，而打消这个念头，跟大伙踏上一样的人生旅途，继续求学，先让知识充实自己，再寻找自己。当然也因为我从小就决定要上大学有一点关系。

结果，因为上天的宠爱，我在完全没有期待的机缘下，寻回做人的重心，虽然不能周游列国，让不同文化背景，让不同国度民情洗脑，却扎扎实实摆正那个已经扭曲的心，至少现在，我可以笑着面对自己的人生。

当然，我还是很想背包旅行，但不是现在，应该是在下一个里程碑的时候完成这个愿望吧，先赚钱储蓄旅行资本先吧～况且，我有这么多朋友会陪我做这件事情，应该不愁我这一生做不到这件事情吧！

从没想过会在ＩＴ领域发展，结果，为了钱，选择自己不喜欢的领域，来换取金钱，现实啊现实～羡慕可以在自己喜欢的领域发展的人，但是试问我可能在大马教育领域里生存吗？在幼儿所当临教那段日子已经发现自己不能在这么落后的教育制度下生存，因为会有很多改革，矛盾声音，只会让自己颓丧～生物学，在我选择在ＭＭＵ就读开始，就已经划上休止符，最多只是在将来成为进修的另一个课程～其实有时候，不能将自己最喜欢的科目成为事业也未必不是好事，至少还会有憧憬，读了以后才开始质疑是不是喜欢的那种矛盾感，不能想象那时自己会怎样应付。认命，反而能画出另一片天空，现在为止，我还是很想拿另一张BIO-RELATED的文凭～

很多人以为，我应该是事业心强的人，其实不然，我只想做些事情，回馈社会～憧憬像德雷莎修女的生活/决定/毅力/事业～却因为家里的因素，放不下家里与家人，而决定让自己先跟其他人走一样的路，先赚钱糊口，再做能帮助世界的事情。在现实与梦想的拉锯战里找到平衡点，让自己不被现实毁掉梦想，或过于沉醉在梦想国度里，不是一件容易的事情。

那里，是我伸展心里愿望的一个出口～很奇怪，其实若不是接触那里，我可能也不会有现在这样的想法～究竟是命运决定性格，还是性格决定命运，就好像蛋跟母鸡的理论一样，怎样争论也得不到一个答案。很多时候都觉得自己比别人幸福～因为至少我在现实以外，能找到一片天空，去绘画自己的梦想～虽然，这条路似乎不容易走，因为要常在现实跟梦想之间游走～但是只要相信，就一定会有所感应，有一天，一定可以做到的～～不管能帮得上多少，就尽能力帮上多少,不要忘记自己最初的梦想！不要因为时间，现实的磨灭，而放弃心中梦想的蓝图！

(不知道那时候是怎样的想法，或有怎样的人生，但是，这是即将毕业的我，献给5年后的我)

For You

2009-05-08T01:15:00.001+08:00

For all my frens, thanks for the celebration.. The refreshment wif u guys/gurls really burst off many of my worries / anxiety/ grief… For those had celebrate wif me.. I really enjoy the moment to hang out wif u guys… For those SMS / MSN greet me.. Feel Warmth to receive your greetings … this year i had 5 celebration in different day , which is totally a GUINNESS WORLD RECORD in mein’s DIARY …

1) celebrate with family on my lunar bday which fall on two weeks b4 my gregorian BDAY

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2) celebrate with Ya Teng , cheng yee n MEI YEE in UMA.. i choose the place cozz tht mamak stall is another stop that record all my memory of secondary school beside SMP…lolz.. I love to be just stay there and enjoy the moment with you gurls.. never expect i’ll like enjoying movie in cinema and appreciate/observing my fren’s facial expression during our hang out moment…No photo taken but the warmth scene wif u gurls always in my memory (2/5/2009)

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3) celebrate with bro n sis due to my dearest sis effort .. this women had give me the best gift ever since i knew her ~ ENJOYED THE MOMENT.. I KNEW everyone been tired after the event.. but can juzz hang out like that really thrilling~ Hopes u guys enjoy like me as well..Thanks for the wishes from u guys… TOUCHED…. *o*…thanks sis viv for joining us, thanks jin hao had celebrate his honour day wif me.. thanks ryan for the long wishes..never expect you will wish me so sincerely .. i`m really touched tht time lehh , i`m so flattered !! haha… thanks seok teng for brought the photo n uploaded in FB, teng ,thanks for being the only mates that leftdown n fight together all these years…^^ the celebration on the exact day REALLY LIGHTEN ME , … zzlolzz (3/52009)

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4) HANG OUT wif laine, shin wen and sok boon~ POOR elaine.. cannot enjoy nice food from GARDEN in ONE UTAMA… fancy restaurant that had cost them alot.. make me feel guilty ..but see from laine’s hp pic.. worth it lahh.. the environment and with the people i love , you know, i had missed the chance to celebrate wif them, no matter their bday celebration (especially elaine , so this year i muzz have a great celebration with you , as you had sacrifice so much for me..need 2 endure temptation throughout the whole celebration…), or mine ever since we grad from FORM 6.. thanks SOK BOON for willing give big face n join us.. THANKS shin wen for organised n decide this nice restaurant.. hope you enjoy ur trip in THAILAND!!!

GARDEN(got vegetarian food there.. so nice la guahahahaha)

THANKS A LOT GURLS..

n not forget the “TIAN PIN dian”.. according to our specialists in tian pin -- SWEN.. this shop , we will never appear at there again…luckily i`m not doing food blog.. if not….lolzz dunno why i can be so straight when come to food judges….hahaha.. hang out too much wif SWEN…

(4/5/2009)

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5) celebrate wif zhi mui in MMU.. after 2 days suffer in rushing assignment + studying + refine FYP system.. these woman celebrate my belated bday celebration in c3-10-12.. NICE steamboat and laughter….pegan they all had took many once in a life time picture… hahaha.. n at last i can see eliecia for abt 3 weeks.. really thanks for these woman , especially those live in c3-10-12.. the past 2 days i had keep doing thing in their house.. n let them see my stress face.. really pai sey….. one more thing , next time can let me help in cleaning onot.. if i `m not prepare.. i can oso help in cleaning mahh..

REALLY THANKS to MAKKIE that manage whole prepare progress.. thanks SUZANNE , after “bia” for 2 days like me , oso need 2 help in prepare food.. THANKS jureen for being the great chef n help to prepare as well.. THANKS pei yie for sacrifice your time of doing group assignment for me.. thanks pegan for being the organiser wif eliecia for this gathering .. thanks eliecia and joyce that sacrifice ur time to rush FYP n hang out wif me.. THANKS er jie for monitoring all of us during the celebration, thanks SY for giving the best post of all picture.

(nice legs !!! guahahahaha)

in a nut shell.. thanks for the laughter n the shared time.. WILL MISS YOU GURLS …(6/5/2009)

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every celebration that i had been through this year same weight in my heart as without these great people , my life sure will bcome black n white … I REALLY BLISS to have this GUINNESS RECORD in my life in my 23th bday.….unexpected, Appreciate , gratitude ..

n to all my fren.. THANKS for you guys all these years, no matter the length of time we met.. THANKS for being existed in my life…^o^ cheers~

from 幸福满足的珉敏

today , i hold the hand of a little girl~

2009-04-26T05:09:00.001+08:00

Today , i got a chance to hold a little girl to run in slow speed~I found out that , i really love to b wif kid… tis is one thing that i cannot changed in my life .. The girl actually is wif her grandma, grandma saw us jog.. so asked the girl to come n join the jog.. as Grandma old d… we offer to let the girl jog wif us.. the girl kind of scare at first… but after observe a while n wif the encouragement of grandma…She b brave n let her hand been holded by me..

and from her grandma expression, something had make me alert..My parents actually just like the grandma… they just want me to try my best in my life..They never want me to be very good and great… which i tot they want me to be like that all these years…They just want me to try my best so that i wont regret in future…Is the miscommunication of education …Haha…That’s why i always force myself to be good/ excellent in anything… Although, sometime , you really got thing that you wont good wif….LIKE PROGRAMMING.. really not the thing i`m good with…haha… That’s why, i will only try my best to make the FYP success.. n enjoy the time that can fight with fren in this critical moment..LAST POST for FYP…

N bon voyage to the following day /moment / down stream / upstream wif a gratitude and free thinking!!

gratitude

2009-04-19T02:25:00.001+08:00

在这种十万火急的时刻，不应该部落格，但是，刚刚发生了一些事让我深深觉得自己很幸运。人家说在家靠父母，出外靠朋友，这句话一点也没有错。每个月我都会经历女人要经历的痛苦～这个疯狂的月份也不例外。决定在图书馆外赶功课，assignment 到明早，却发生意想不到的事情，就是每个月的痛苦有来敲门了。半夜在图书馆外赶功课已经有点可怜，又在这个时候…..祸不单行。肚子痛得要命的时候，在我隔壁一起赶功课的系友，林蔬敏竟然立刻就打电话给麦秀芬小姐，叫他拿粉红panadol 来。要知道这两个女人在赶着功课。aireen 一听到，二话不说就说，在哪里等，两个女人就在那里讨论哪里转交那可以救我的命的药～他们两个，尤其是pegan ,自己的身体也是很累到极限，昨晚只睡了4个钟，还要撑到明早，就大老远的走到他们的交界处，就为了就我痛得要死的肚子。眼看他疲惫的身影，我心中很感动，内疚，为什么自己这么不争气，在这个时候肚子痛～虽然我在这里找不到一个想凌甄说的那一个知道我在想什么的肚子里的那条虫，我却在这里遇到9个会为了你，赴汤蹈火的烈女！是我的荣幸，福分！能够在大学结交这样的朋友，即使大学功课忙得像鬼这样，编程式编到要疯掉，也是值得！

Fly ~

2009-04-10T14:16:00.001+08:00

If you have noticed, or you have my msn , you will see this pic as my display pic for a while…IS a photo tat i took in Melaka wif wen, laine, yah, jy, ms n chuan tim..Long time did not have trip / leisure time wif all my dears….!!_!! But then i did some “photoshoping” for it…. I LOVE it so much (but then is definately after the photoshopping…lol)

Tis week been a tense week , n been flooded of various kind of emotion …n kind of inspired me to release those emotion in “creative” way.. e.g: like get sick ..I think tis is why all those artist always seems like under pressure n always sick… GAGAGAGGA…

Pegan say , she had a photo tat took in BALI look alike of tis pic.. How coincidence it is.. is a pic of kite oso , juzz tht her photo got her hand in the photo.. She said.. there is a hidden story behind this photo.. How big the world is , n how small we r in the world…So does this photo

My pic also has a hidden story behind.. .. will only attach a simply wrote short story here to giv you hints.. lol…

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“ 王嫂，打包一个云吞面! 小的，不要菜心！”，ＡＵＮＴＹ，咖喱面！” “ＡＵＮＴＹ，….” 这些熟悉的声音，看似跟卖面的她没有关系，却又好像息息相关，因为，这些人的的五脏庙，都似乎跟她煮出来的食物有所接触。这些客人里，当然少不了熟客，也有因为是客人而成为朋友的街坊。人家说，大城市，人情薄弱，但这些热情的熟客，好像跟这些听似真的“理论”背道而行。很可能，岁月让王嫂学会只看别人的好处，日子会好过很多。待在这个城市，已经有5，6年之久。因为单身独处，卖面成了王嫂唯一与这个社会交际的工具。

一场车祸，夺去她朝暮相思的丈夫，她那两个可爱的古灵精。哥哥在事发之后都深怕王嫂接受不来，除了力邀王嫂住进自己的家，更常常偷偷跟在她的后头，监视她，深怕她会想不开自寻短见。这个哥哥就是神经兮兮的，就连那大嫂也是的，不但鼎立支持哥的监视行动，还一直叮嘱邻居们加入这XX计划。难道，冷静的接受至爱的离开，是不正常的？谁要让自己受伤的疤痕赤裸裸的曝光在众人的批判与审查。就因为要逃避那啰嗦的哥哥，王嫂才举家（丈夫与孩子的灵位）搬迁至另一个没有认识的熟人的大城市，开始她的卖面生涯。

之前是个成功的职业女性，为什么会选择卖面来度过余生？因为她是因为一包面而结识让她深深爱上的丈夫。他们开始交往以后，她就开始专研煮面的技巧，为的就是让爱吃面的他，吃饱时脸上露出的笑容！孩子们也跟他们的老爸一样，就喜欢吃她煮的面食。只可惜，他们还在世的时候，她与丈夫却为了让孩子有更舒适的生活，而只顾着忙碌赚钱，连煮面也是很少为孩子做的事情！为什么在赚够钱，要从职场上退下，好好跟孩子有更多时间的时候，上天却夺走她这一生最珍贵的东西？

麻痹，是她现在选择的生活态度。偶尔，哥哥嫂嫂也会来探望她。但是因为距离的关系，次数并不多。休息的日子，她总会到最靠近的书行，沉醉在书海里，偶尔也会跟相熟的街坊出去走走，远行。

曾经跟她不相符的沉默，至今已经变成她最佳良伴。看书，也是死去的丈夫最喜欢做的休闲活动。

幸亏，她还是脸上常挂着温暖的笑容，要不然，一定不可能让这些街坊们这么喜欢这不多话的卖面阿嫂。这个笑容，是他唯一留给她的叮嘱。在医院临死前，还开玩笑的说，笑啊，你的笑容是这世上最美, 答应我，要笑着过接下来的日子！

这一年，在王嫂的顾客里，多了一个6，7岁大的孩子，他明媚皓齿，精灵的让人不多疼惜他也不行。王嫂常会在做他叫的面里，多加一分心去烹煮。孩子的爸妈是邻近的街坊，两夫妻也是为了生活而到这个城市拼搏的年青父母，在这个城市一个亲人也没有。所以，有时候，因为工作忙碌，他们也会把孩子寄放在王嫂这里。因为这个孩子特别懂事，也特别讨人喜欢，最重要，他很少会吵着王嫂做生意，除了乖乖坐着做功课，读书，玩自己的电动，还会帮忙王嫂收拾碗具，这种惹人喜欢的孩子，王嫂当然也不抗拒。他们成为了很少讲话，却很有默契的忘年之交。

有一次，孩子刚好学校假期，所以也空着没事做，便囔着王嫂在工作完毕后到附近的公园散步。就因为这个孩子，这几年很少接触太阳与屋外活动的王嫂，也在孩子的暑假，开始有了屋外活动。这一天，因为天气阴凉，公园附近也有了放风筝的人群。孩子当然也囔着要放风筝。为了奖励这乖巧的孩子，王嫂也应他要求，两人一起放风筝.在玩累了以后，孩子与王嫂就坐在湖边休息，静静欣赏那些漂亮的风筝随风飞舞。“aunty,风筝不但会飞，也很漂亮哦！我好喜欢放风筝，因为aunty 在放风筝的时候，笑得最开心！”

这句话，勾起了王嫂的记忆，她跟他在出事前也曾经跟孩子在度假时一起放风筝，两个平时总挂着大人的脸的他们，在那时也是放下包袱，好好享受人生。这是他们最后一起玩闹的日子。他们的风筝，一个跟着另一个风筝，他大喊： “你看那两个风筝，好像我们哦！不管风多么的大，还是粘在一起！琳，接下来不管发生什么事，我们也要像风筝这样勇敢，自由找寻自己的方向，向前飞，即使我们不是在同一个地方，但是我们的想法将会永远像这两个风筝这样在一起！ ”

想到这，王嫂哭了，忍了这么多年的思恋，化成泪水，随风拭干。孩子还是沉醉在观赏多姿多彩的风筝，没有察觉在瞬间有了变化，心中有所决定的王嫂。

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p.s: 王嫂是幸福的，至少，他有可以相依相随的风筝，虽然，他跟她分隔阴阳～

beyond words

2009-04-07T03:33:00.001+08:00

5th April : 缅怀。承诺。无言。

活在当下 Live for your life

2009-04-05T04:10:00.002+08:00

Today , gone out hv funn wif zhi mui in MMU.. alto i should b study, should b do assignment , should b do FYP..or many thing …but , i`m glad tht i manage to go out wif them…believe it onot…i never shopping wif those woman.. how come? how pathetic i`m..

alto now i need 2 face the music..need 2 rush for my study thingy.. BUT then 1 thing make me not regret to be tht dare to go out n hv fun wif fren…as i juz receive a bad news .. 1 close aunty have passed away on today afternoon…i`m shock n sorrow for her leaving…she such a great aunty!Her leaving so sudden, alto we know that she been suffered of liver cancer.. but never expect so fast… alto is a good thing for her.. cozz is really suffer to be treated in liver cancer…BUT her leaving remind me… to live for your life… 活在当下.. never do thing will make you miserable or regret…

like missed out your opportunity to share time and thoughts wif family and frens bcozz you so busy n stress

like did not learn thing from what you study .. n keep complain how difficult the situation is of the assignment / test…

like turn all your anxiety to the one that care for you…

like when you in the situation that make you stronger, but you keep complaining that situation too difficult for you and refuse to learn..

like did not take action whenever you met someone u like..(whereby is a really hard thing for me to do so…as i really low self esteem when come to tis issue.. )

I WILL TRY MY BEST TO LIVE MY LIFE !HOPe YOU all TOO!!

Facebooking~

2009-04-03T10:51:00.001+08:00

i knew fb when i`m in second year third sem.. which make me indulge , n get to know some fren in MMU.. like ka yeng n ding.. haha , everytime tot of get rid of fb, it will come up new application make ppl addicted de lehh.. tired.. yest… i got found out 3 application,

1 called katcha… my housemate all play it like siao.. cozz been tense wif the outcome of FYP..

is a photo editing application…it will only funn…if u got fren play lahh.. i got 2 siao housemate accompany me to play.. so..

i will katcha more later if got response from tht 2 woman la..

then the second application called photo hunter.. is kind of like search diff between 2 pic…

the 3rd application called restaurant city… a new game from flash fish again.. which make me keep indulge Fabebook punya suai application…

if you really free.. is recommend you to go n hv a try on this application…but if u failed to finish your work.. dun blame me.. lol..

JIA YOU !! p^o^q

Earth Hour

2009-03-28T22:28:00.001+08:00

KLCC did closed light during tht time~ WOOHOO…straight away see the action of Petronas as KLCC is a spotview from my balcony, other than tht , i not really know how Malaysia do for the earth hour.. waited for the short video around the world from youtube…muzz b a fascinating view that everyone closed light for the earth..

Wat i did? i`m in “mediated” condition during tht time..hampir fall asleep.. my brother went out for celebrating his fren back.. my sis hv funn wif mr chou in her dream land…dad went out for mamak n mum rest in her bedroom.. i`m the only bees enjoy the darkness in my house living room n donate blood to nyamuk… i dun even wanna put a candles on as I told myself to enjoy the darkness…

knowing Evonne gonna have funn wif her fren outside during the specific hour…not everyone joined the act at my living area.. can knew tht by observe from the street.. Useless to force a ppl to shut up the lights if they dun wan , i think tht`s y wwf did not ask TNB to cutoff the electricty in Malaysia tht time…enjoyed the peace of darkness, n refrain from electric and electronic stuff..

seriously , i think myself kind of addicted or rely electronic n electrical stuff.. how pathethic is to know tht after 1 hour peaces..

time pass

2009-03-21T11:59:00.001+08:00

MARCH already about finish... GOSH , it even pass faster than FEB....scary ! Many family n frens matter come up tis few weeks.. make the time pass like.. zooomm... N yet.. i still got lot of thing need 2 do n finalize... hope this week i can finish n make all the thing works , if not ... i will die in inappropriate way.. which i dun hope to see... { PRAY HARD }

These few week thingy that shown up changed my mind .. make me see clearly what i want ... n prepare me if i really fall in the worst condition... although i knew deep down in my heart i dun wanna fall in tht condition , but my action not reciprocal with that will... WTH... i`m lazy

n I so luv being lazy.. but like wat i said on last week ... is not a reason.. i Should move on , move on... and bon voyage for the striving journey !

= GOD BLESS =

tis week i can fight like a warrior with the courage and make all the thing works!

Happy Belated bday dear pei ru!

2009-03-09T03:43:00.001+08:00

Dear , im sorry la, lazy to blog... i wonder u want all this pic onot, so juzz post here~ tired sunday , cozz juzz finish prac n oso help 2 set up wedding in fo tang.. =p but when i look at our outing pic, i realise how i love u gurls! ^o^, cozz all the tiredness jus go away!! haha....hope you really enjoy the celebration !!!

"chu jiok" so guilty la, take the pic of meat.. lol

I love snap shot the most

You so photogenic la dear.. juzz dunno y everytime you will say sendiri look fat...haha

laugh, Food and environment

Group pic that suffer us... the 1 tht waitress take really blur like ....

me n u...lol.. big face n small face~took by YT

1, 2 , 3 , 3 pic of u and geok lian, and i love the last 1 de most

you n wen jye... the light so irritating la...make my camera so blur...lol

YT "ban ke ai " picture

Sorry for the blur n yellowish pic...>.< my camera really kind of sa sa liao la.. i think its life oso kind of near to end...but luckily these pic quality not really tht bad la...alto not tht perfect...hope you willing 2 accept all these pic la, pei ru~

Luv You Always! ^o^

you are my sis!

2009-03-04T02:57:00.002+08:00

3/3/2009 ody past …. yesterday is rained in jln ipoh, yesterday , my family is the one to pamper tht willfulness woman ~ poor sis.. Although sometimes , i cannot endure her temper , but she is the only princess tht i will endure for my life… i`m her “slaves” since 1998 .. cozz previously i torture her with my bad temper and the power of being an elder sis ~ which had abused her childhood ~_~!! why she will elaborate like this, i also no idea……

all this kind of bullshit, but sincerely she is my princess that always help me out and being the only listener when i`m really down…

she cannot endure i`m acting stupid in front of ppl… tht`s y she need 2 instruct me so tht i can act smart.. again…all these is hers nonsense theory… They say , sibling was once enemy in previous life..

i`m very sure abt this theory , y? i`m still rmb deeply , i so hate her when i`m still a 3 years old kid…u will say ,dun kidding la man , 3 years old, is like 20 years back memory , you still rmb tis? yes, indeed , i`m rmb tis firmly as i`m really regret tht i will dislike any other ppl when i’m still a cute child… they always say kid is most purify , the kindest human form,n yet i`m being tht stupid , shallow, evil and being tht realistic during those years…tis show tht i`m really having an evil’s gene within my soul even i’m still a kid…but times changed me.. i`ve suffer to torture her and being in hatreds,haha…sounds like drama rite?

therefore, start from 9 years old, i change my attitude, as i know the bond of sisterhood is for tis whole life,… n guess wat? she become my princess afterwards..

She is the first person tht knew my dark secret…she the one tht i share thoughts.. acting willfulness n bad tempered is definitely not her, although she seems like tht…but i knew is because she felt uncertainty towards her life..therefore she will act like tht…when she really care abt 1 thing, she will fought for tht like a warrior no matter she will gain so much dissatisfaction from other ppl …

21 st years old…is a edge that define a person become adult.. i wish tht she will have a bright future n all the bad luck will vanish after 21 st years! Love her always! my dearest princess…

P.s: i hv celebrate wif her wif our fren in advance, as i cannot accompany her on her exact birthday which kind of disappointed her as she did not receive wishes /sms from those she expected… poor sis… i really hope she did enjoyed her 21st bday!!

my princess!!

thanks for coming, brother and sisters!!!

thanks sis viv from all the way coming down from shah alam!! i`m really feel pai sey , as the organiser tht force her come…=p

thanks leng zai thiam, you r the participant tht giv me a positive response when i invite u guys who giv me the courage to keep held this celebration!

thanks markson for being tht good “zi mui ” all these years~although u seems moody tht day, but hope u can overcome it…we rather u being tht “ji po”

thanks ryan for being tht “idiot” that willing to play those stupid act wif foon ling all the time in holy~~ hahaha

thanks fatt go for being tht “man” in practice,no la, for being a good role model tht giv a great smile in daily life and during performance

thanks bro zhi weng tht need 2 entertain markson when we dun wan to..=p

thanks mei jun, xin ku le, need 2 take care of tht “cute” thiam thiam all the time,… ^^

thanks wei yee for being urself all these years !

thanks pei zhen, for endure those kids during the whole celebration !

Last , but not least ,

bro kent, thanks for being driver all these years, thanks for the gift , and willing to come for foon ling’s bday celebration as u dun like this kind of function actually.. ur participation meant a lot to foon ling de lohh… =p

nice food…nugget of mg , highly recommend

here come most thrilling part of the celebration !! acting stupid session!!

warmth talk wif each other

happy photo taking session

u c thiam thiam expression, so happy can take photo wif leng lui lehh…

whereby when wif his own gf

how sweet they are!!!

thiam thiam r giving the best director award tht day as he make ryan to post those silly and “shock” post!! like

“wat r u doing??” <—directed by thiam thiam , act by ryan (ryan also been nominate as best actor award,but he lost in this award as)

(fatt go u r the king of act, no one can compete u!!)

and the best supporting actor is

(the umbrella! to support the drama bcome more thriling!! hahaha )

from the expression of sis viv, u can know tht how silly is those act from all those guy….guahahahahahhaa

n lastly ,i hope u enjoy ur bday celebration my dearest princess!!

痊愈??

2009-02-22T22:25:00.002+08:00

还真的蛮久懒得来把自己的行程报告给亲爱的部落格，因为懒得连自己都觉得自己面目可憎～哈哈，昨天百般不愿意地回去cyber，在车站等着车的时候，被雨淋，情节跟电影好不相似，略胖的身体被微弱的雨点打上，是一点感觉也没有，但是湿达达的回到宿舍，那种感觉是不好受的，好像被唾弃的小狗，夹着尾巴逃回宿舍！以为人回到来了就会工作，却还是打死也不愿再碰我的FYP，为什么？因为要重新改过，还是不想不知道自己做什么而乱糟糟的在让老师们shoot 我？不知道，我只知道我很想放弃，但是放弃了，过了这个学期还是要重做，虽然可能没有这个问题这么难让我明白，但是就白白浪费时间了！我才没有这么容易被打败，但是我这是在自我勉励，还是自我陶醉？我不晓得～讨厌漂浮不定的感觉，讨厌就要溺毙的感觉，快点加油振作！那天跟pegan用早餐，我自己研发了痊愈论，一个人痊愈，就好像伤口痊愈般，先会有一道疮疤把受伤的地方保护起来，再慢慢用时间来复合之前受到的伤害。人也是这样，心受到伤害了，先会崩溃，然后把自己硬撑起来，让旁边的人没有这么担心你，才来自己慢慢疗伤。我常常就是这样的人～以前总以为回到家就是一团乱，但是这次回家，却安安稳稳的感觉到家给的支持，老爸老妈让我任性的休息，是我这时候最需要的支柱～弟弟妹妹现阶段的蛀米大虫生活，是为了要掩饰自己的不安，但是他们那么开心地得过且过，是不是我应该向他们学习的地方呢？我不知道，我只知道，我要好好努力，即使是那么百般不愿意，即使是前所未有的懒～

我要练习，不要上课！！！ –》星期天的MOTTO，哈哈，但是我还是会撑完整个课程的，因为这是身为做学生的责任，就当是最后一次的履行学生的责任！但一想到下个星期天会ＳＫＩＰ班，就好不开心，因为下礼拜天要跟妹庆祝２１岁生日，就只好留在家里，去练习，想到都开心，hohohohohoho，这几天几个身边的好友生日，很开心能跟他们庆祝，尤其是跟莉雯，我才惊觉我跟她，一胖一瘦的组合，是一世人的友谊～哈哈！虽然钱包是真的有点痛！

没有写到一个完全泄气，晦涩的部落格，很不错啊～至少看了不回让人沮丧～下次也要这么写啦！！

愿望 - 九把刀

2009-02-06T14:07:00.001+08:00

『我不需要别人无法拥有的东西，特别伟大的东西』女孩还是小小回拒：『我只想喜欢，我喜欢的。』

“I don`t need thing that others cannot own, the thing that is specially great ” the girl refuse tenderly: “I only like what i like ”

『精灵先生，你觉得什么是愿望啊？』女孩抱着双脚。

“Mr Jinny , what you think about wish?” the girl hug her feet n ask.

『愿望就是…….希望得到的东西』精灵率直地说。

“wish is … the thing that you want to own” The Jinny answer.

『那是欲望，不是愿望。』女孩若有所思，橘色的风吹过她的长发。

“That is desire, not wish”

『两者之间有什么分别？』精灵不懂。

“what the difference between two?”

他实在是不懂。

He really dunno.

『我爷爷说，愿望代表了追求，代表着希望。』女孩微笑看着精灵，说：『希望可以带来力量，欲望不能！』

“My grandpa say , wish represent pursue, represent hopes” the girl looked at jinny and smile , she say :” hope can bring strength , desire cannot!”

『自由』女孩也看着天空。

“Freedom”, the girl looked at sky.

『自由？』精灵喃喃自语。

“Freedom?” Jinny mumble himself.

『有了自由，你就可以海阔天空追寻你的愿望，实现你的愿望。』女孩微笑

“With freedom,you can pursue you dream without any restrain, and make your wish come true” the girl smile

…….

那是重獲自由的眼泪。

That is the tears of regain freedom.

那是，得到关心的喜悦。

that is, the joy of gaining care from others

『有了一个美好的愿望，其他的愿望变成了贪心了呢。』女孩幽幽说道。

“With a great wish, other wishes become greedy!”the girl whispered.

女孩的天真无邪，无欲无求，本身就是最大的自由。

The naive and the purify of the girl, without any desire , that is the freedom of all freedom.

那是每个人都天生拥有的禀赋。

That is the ability that own by everyone.

只是常常，人们都忘记了这份自由。

Just that , human always forget about this freedom

女孩始终没有见到藏着一道彩虹的神秘贝壳。

In the end, the girl still failed to find the shell that contained rainbow which she wishes for.

但女孩不急。

but the girl not feeling anxious.

女孩说过，她喜欢的，其实是浪里寻找神秘贝壳的过程。

She have tell before, what she actually like is the progress of searching that mystery shell.

…………..

一时不晓得该去哪里，但精灵不急。

The jinny dunno where he shud heading to, but he not anxious

精灵有的是自由，寻找愿望的方向。

what jinny have now, is the freedom, The direction of searching wish!

Anyone interest to look at the full script , can view : GIDDENS . Hv a great weekend ya!

Love Actually…

2009-02-04T15:24:00.001+08:00

Carefree first week in cyberjaya,

Start my diet planning ,

and enjoy my free time with drama series i love and Great Movie!!!

This Movie – Love Actually that shown in 2003 , is a great movie to me ~

My taste level not that high, so .. this movie shud b consumable to every walks of life…haha

Y suddenly will download tis movie , cozz i saw the best scene of this movie in my daily read blog – miss at lapaya.. straight away go mininova.org dl!!Thank God..is still downloadable!

It is a story that portraits diff types of love around 9 pairs of couple with different relationship

1st pair –> a vintage pop singer with his loyal manager(wat i mean by vintage is “guo qi”)

2nd –> a famous writer with his housekeeper in France that originally from Portugal

3rd –> stepfather and really young’s son who lost their wife n mother

4th –> prime minister and the catering manager (actually is housekeeper again..)

5th –> best friend

6th –> long married couple where husband doing affair with his secretary

7th –> a couple that meet in work (their work is porn star…wat kind of situation is tht?)

8th –> a great sister willing giv over her love life (where by her amazing unrequited lover is stay over her place, n she juzz spoilt the moment like tht to answer her brother phone call twice!! N their relationship juzz blow away due to tht day circumstances…wat a waste!! )for her mentally disorder brother

9th –> an artist that secretly fall in love with his best friend’s wife(how i wish can get a confession like tht,but the percentage of getting it is negative 80 % !!_!!)

All this kind of relationship juzz portray 10 % of that thousand types of love…It main theme is XMAS , u shud share times wif the one you love..It mixture the story of these 9 pairs of ppl with diff relationship perfectly.. n the scene.. wow… is breathtaking.. A good quality of scene with the breathtaking’s background view always blow me away… I`m always in love with the movie that taken nicely with a same level of story line…

i still remember when the movie shown in Malaysia,I actually wanna go cinema n enjoy this movie..but yet not manage to do it during tht time, but a good movie always good no matter u watch in where and when u watch!

10th day of CNY , still in CNY mode… i think i`ll start to move after kena scold by FYP’s supervisor later on…

Happy "NIU" Year

2009-01-26T04:52:00.001+08:00

Alto not really having the feeling of new year , but still wanna wish everyone HAve a prosperity year ! Always been bless , be healthy all the time... Ox year be a great year!! ^o^ May those ody working...事业进步! ，May those still studying, having great result, May those ody in relationship...be sweetier n happier, may those single n available...can found their mr right/ miss right in Ox year , May all the guy , b more leng cai , mall all the girl, b more leng lui, may all those hv $$ , can get more $$ , n those earn less $$ .. also earn more money... may all those ody hving car , can finish their car loan soon.. may all those busy .. can b less busy bit yet still earn more money..may all those zombie can bcome normal ppl soon.. May all those always wanna slim.. can get slim...n Those wanna gain weight can gain more weight ! N MOST IMPORTANT , FEEL HAPPY ALL ALONG the OX Year , no matter how the environment u`re in!!!

迎接

2009-01-17T12:34:00.001+08:00

上了一个星期的课，终于来到我最后一个OFFICIAL的假期，那天，老妈才算了我还

剩下大约150天就会毕业，如果一切顺利的话，可想而知他是那么期望我会毕业~本

来还打算玩到癫，但是看来是不行了，要开始再模拟我的毕业论文~讨厌！！！很感

激能完整，以及好好的上完这几天的课，因为之前给钱上的EXTRA 课从来就没有从

一而终，虽然二月三月的周末我还是要上课，但是真的很期望我会好好的上课！经

过一番的挣扎，我决定取北京之行舍毕

业典礼，我知道我选这条路就好像下赌注，虽然之前我已经做决定，但是团长一告

诉我只能在6/8/2009跟大伙一起到北京时，我真的有"De Deng"的感觉！

MARKET SURVEY 了几个朋友的意见，还有询问SENIOR 的看法后，我是里清了

自己的想法，虽然我知道北京这条路不好走，但是我还是一意孤行，希望我能好

好的应付接下来的挑战，把学业和练习时间掌握好，对我这半个书呆子而言，学业

真的很重要，毕业典礼真的只是一个里程碑，因为我相信，我还会至少再拿一个

ＭＢＡ或其他的，至少现在的我是那么的期待，不能去毕业典礼，最对不起的其实

是父母亲，但是毕不毕了业才是重点...恐怖～我真的要用尽吃奶至力来应付接下来

的日子，愿上天保佑！好好迎战牛牛年！！

P.S: Thanks to all the fren tht help me, yuh chyi, ryan, kent , elaine, mei

chee, pegan ... I

even dun dare to discuss with ya teng , i knew she will nag me till die

de ... !!_!!

Gilmore Girl and One Tree Hill

2009-01-13T23:48:00.001+08:00

Who ever like tis 2 drama series previously? hhmm..apparently tis two drama on season 6 or season 8 is been on aired now in 8TV… Wow… Really unexpected my high school fav drama series will back to national TV… Like the drama character, I`ve been grow up from being a bewildered teenager …. Alto now, i`m still always fill with uncertainty … Haha , but juzz like the drama heroes n heroin , if there r not uncertainty, where is the drama? …. Cheers everyone , enjoy 2009 !! n Enjoy ur LAST SEMESTER BREAK , Min !!

Gilmore Girl

(First english drama series that i`m actually chasing for)

One Tree Hill

(The Soap Drama i`ll watch before the Fab5 on every saturday on f6!!)

Bleeding Love

2009-01-06T13:38:00.001+08:00

^BLEEDING LOVE^

Song of the year 2008 : Bleeding love

Album of the year 2008 : Dreaming Out Loud , One republic

(l so love tis song till i keep thinking the drawing of it , hmm..the above drawing juzz a draft, might changing later on..haha, recently got heard some of the new song that is nice : what about now --> chris daughtry, unbreakable --> fireflight , one step at a time--> Jordin Sparks )anyone free shud go youtube , n hv a try listen to these songs!!!but i dun think will draw for other songs as i did not get any inspire yet during listening~~haha

n dreaming out loud album...is a big wow, i keep listening tis album's song , i think is more than 50 times within year 2008!!Never fall for an album like tht except LINKIN PARK's and the OST of the movie i love... like SECRET --> (Directed by Jay ) or one of the classic movie --> D'Amelie (2001)

巴士手札- 1

2009-01-03T01:00:00.001+08:00

Ah beh's return

2009-01-03T00:46:00.001+08:00

The photo i luv the most is the second row, the 3 middle's pic !! Looking from behind , like dejavu....

haha

Hope every ppl tht i know always in well condition !!

kind of blogging alot these few days as is EXAM time...hahaha blogging bcome a reason to b

escape from facing reality... pathethic~

2009 new year resolution~

2009-01-01T21:00:00.001+08:00

1.和谐！！

2.loss 5 kg before august...possible??

3. Graduate on time n found job after graduate

4.Be happy and enjoy the rest of the day of studying

5.always feel blissful !!

May this new year brought everyone a new start, although 2008 was a great year!! ^o^

Crossing

2008-12-29T06:37:00.001+08:00

Supposingly i should post wat i did in my xmas eve n xmas , but yet when the

time i`m blogging, i`m full capacity of mixed emotion .... Mayb juzz after hang out

wif secondary fren on yesterday ~ I'm glad to hang out wif them, will post tht 1

after tis post... Listening to the music i love now and let the feeling of disconsolate

control my mind now~ 5 years , ody past 5 years after my secondary school... n

searching my own direction 4 5 years~used to b tht bold kids , used to b a

dubious teenager ... n within tis 5 years, yes...there is a lot changes within

myself , but something tht is the same still remain in my body, like i`m always

feel hard to separate wif the lovely ppl around me...hang out wif my secondary

fren, is like dejavu for myself ,i`m afraid after another , 5 years, when hang out wif

my MMU zhi mui, i`ll feel the same..another huge stream of dejavu....we shared

so much of memory in uni life..like the following pic's...

i`m worry like , wat pegan say , juzz left down 1/2 years.. i really hate the feelings

of separate, alto i`ve been separate wif my f5 , f6 fren previously , alto i`m still

often keep in touch n hang out wif my dearest Ya Teng , Pei Ru , Cheng Yee,

Kuan Fong ,and the form 6 gang... but for those that cannot keep in touch for

different reason....not seeing them, like losing them in ur life.. n the uni fren, i`m

sure we will separate after uni as distance always the major issue if we graduate..

BTW , i`m happy tht can count down n have my xmas eve wif Ya Teng n

her lovely uni fren`s Su Ying , i met them in the curve ,i`m glad that i can

slip out and being sinics wif YT n Su Ying, jealous wif YT`s Camera, when

can i hv my own DLSR?? i sengaja leave

the group as i know those woman will go for crazy 's style of countdown,

which always not my preference~Xmas and xmas eve suppose is

to share ur time wif ur beloved with warm snacks ...not playing spray!!

at last i`m here again

2008-11-29T01:42:00.001+08:00

i`m glad that i can blogging at here again, not because i`m busy till i cannot blogging, but is because of i`m not having any mood to blog at here.. Hv a confession here... i already "paralysed" for two weeks, some of my spare part broken n cannot make me move on last 2 weeks..pegan, ya teng , elaine , evonne get a lot of complained sounds from me... i`m too "excited" wif my FYP n make me choose to b shut down for past 2 weeks... juzz can do my another side of important stuff instead of my personal important thing... thanks to god... i`m curing now.... after 2 weeks of struggling, at last i hv the confident to blow water at here.. after clear the mind n judging the decision tht i hv made... I know where is my direction d...i`m really slow ...slow in reaction.. typical taurus ... i hate myself to be tht pessimist... but i`m... i can only confess tht i`m hv tht stupid gene in my blood.... luv to b in ambiguous n always set a trap for myself to step in it....ishh.. how pathetic i`m ... tot m ody far far away from being a pessimist teenager... but when pressure come...i`m like tht angry kids again.... make myself suffer.. >.<but at least now i`m clear .. clear with wat i shud do now...thanks to ppl around me,especially pegan, my dearest coursemate that receive a lot of complaining letter, MY DEAREST YA TENG tht shock me tht she realise i`m pressure wif my FYP after 1 week tht i complained to her... thanks to the meet up wif elaine, evonne n sheau wei ... they make me out of my gloomy cloud.. wanna sms them to thanks them,but then no $$ in hp >.< ... thanks to sis viv tht help me clear my doubt abt my struggling n during the chat make me suddenly realise y i choose tis decision ... i`m blogging here to advice and remind myself to b more positive n not to b tht fragile... fren , seriously i`m not as tough as u think .. The cover more hard, the inner more fragile ..

I`m traveller

2008-11-14T02:53:00.003+08:00

Yes...i`m back to MMU dy...like wat mei chee say everything was so familiar n yet so strange... i`m glad to c my zi mui`s again....alto i say i `m so hurt tht they did not view my blog, especially pegan,....but yet, when seeing them, i`m feel great again...so love to hanging wif them, czz they always hv the solution to life happily without show the stress ~~ they really like non need 2 study 1.......this is my greatest compliment ya, really dun hv any element of caci, in the short words i`m jealous towards them, cozz they know how 2 enjoy life!!

happy to see mong lan~ we become closer cozz reading hers and mine blog...Mong Lan,u look tired than the image tht i hv in my memory... working In IT really make u suffer huhh??? n i really admire u lah.... can still hang out wif yong jun lehh... sometimes i really dun like his way of talking ... so care abt who is good n who is not good in study....especially the talk wif solo king when we walk to cyberia... caci ppl like non need money 1....

happy to c tony, mei chee, elaine, james they all....seems like a bit weirdo when hang out...but i`m seriously feeling great 2 hang out wif u guys~ tony have GF during the internship.... my gosh ,again, everything is under his control...elaine still the same happy go lucky ppl n enjoying her life happily in SK , mei chee busy wif the work again wif the previous company , never c her stopp... james...seems like nothing change...

happy to c zhi kong,ah kai, cfc ,issam, arvinder, kah yeng, ding , alto did not talk wif some of them, but can c their face oso is consider a credit dy... alto juzz classmate, but yet, really glad to seeing them...

everyone keep asking me the same question, y i want to travel everyday... answer is simple, cozz my new timetable only from mon till weds... n i need 2 help out .. i tot i never adapt to the life of campus... but yet now, thurs nite... i`m mising the life in NEA wif er jie n eliecia... tht can hang out / go yam cha on 3 am / 4am, joining in the event of any club.. and back to house/ holy whenever i like.. now.. thurs nite.. i can only face the computer myself n wonder where everyone else going... alto i`m juzz back to house on 11.30pm..

being travel from KL to Cyber is tired... especially taking bus.. really mentally torture me... but when think of can save $ , i`m can only mouth shut....the true fact is my house car `s sterling ody not adapt d.. i `m afraid to drive... the workload was a lot.. alto my parents say y u non need study on thurs n fri, but then my time was constraint like hell if i really count..but now, i`m not doing tht,..i`m juzz do everything of the vege carnival for this weekend... i`m thanks to god to let me hv free time on thurs n fri.. cozz can help out n do more thing,like focused on the FYP , like giving tuition 2 earn some pocket money , like help to do holy`s thing.. I hope i won`t screw up my FYP...

Looking forward to this weekend~ n then can start do all my job!!

无言

2008-11-06T11:45:00.001+08:00

一转眼，我可爱的假期就这样过去了，就好像IDIOMS说的一样，FACE THE

MUSIC，真的很不想，但这就是现实....现在的我是很惆怅，也有些难过，难过是因

为独处，难过是因为不想离开现在的悠闲，说悠闲，满脑子却是未完成的工作，矛

盾吧？有的时候真的不能控制自己的思绪继续游走，很想离开，然后到无人岛上，

理清自己要什么.....但是这些都只是梦想～很享受在文字里游走的感觉，尤其是让

人有遐想空间的作家，就好像春上村树，就好像卡夫卡，就好像九把刀....感谢他们

让我能在文字里找到平静，能够忙里抽闲，让自己透透气的日子已经不长矣，咳～

在这里，介绍一首歌－静止。杨乃文，垂死坚持！啊，啊啊啊啊，啊啊啊，已静止

很喜欢乱写，乱吠，乱涂来让自己沉淀，像梦兰讲这样，我写什么，其实不需要得

到别人的肯定，做回自己最开心，现在一边听静止这首歌，一边乱写乱涂，一边找

回自己，没有人能谈话时真的会闷得发疯也～我想部落格是自己唯一能任性的地

方，在别人面前总会掩饰自己，就算是在家人，朋友面前，这是一种习惯，就好像

爸爸进院的时候，虽然自己故作坚强，但是还是要扮得若无其事，我们整家人已经

乱得像什么似的，却一直催眠自己，没事的没事的～好像现在不想离开放假，却还

要说我现在闷得发疯，想回学校～好像知道自己很没用，却死命说我其实很有

用，是阿Ｑ精神吗？我也不晓得也，我只知道我现在要乱写，乱涂，乱吠！

Freak out

2008-10-31T12:51:00.001+08:00

Is there anything happen hips on the town recently ? to be honest i`m

auf from the world ever since i`m start my industrial training....tot can

go out n play on my lovely holiday , but then....i`m still can`t do

anything....no $$ when i`ve time now..n no time when i `ve $$$ .....To be

honest i`m lost...lost wif my direction , when i`m out of higher priority

task...i`ll b don`t know wat shud i do...study? i`ve say i want to start

studying ever since 7 oct but now...i only manage to study 2

slide...sigh~n my FYP....gosh..... i did not touch tht thing ever since i say

bye to shirley~n yet , i`m juz know how to plan my hv funn time.... gosh

gosh gosh~watching project runway 5 now... kind of agree wif the

opinion on9 where this season not as drama as last season...but yet, i

love leanne`s runway in the end....is awesome....i can imagine there r

too much thinking n talent in this girlie looks designer...

The collection juzz blow me away....n the sturcture wow...is really new,

n advance in any decades of the fashion now...i`ll keep my eye on

her......MY brother finish his UEC exam..y mention abt him? cozz i like

too.....n i`m still busying, n looking

forward to YT`s next week coming back....i won`t care so much of

thing of next week...i`ll only strive for go out , hang out ,chat wif my

dearest YA TENG, alto tht woman keep saying i`ll lepas kapal terbang

on last minutes...but this time i won`t care, i`ll juzz go out like tht

without any consideration...this is so call rebellion ~ unorganise n dunno

wat i`m talk abt? nvm.. is only for this temporary , after i`m watch

enuff project runway, will back to normal n organise my

pact timetable...lalalala~

Gypsy

2008-10-17T14:23:00.003+08:00

I`m kind of lost on this week....My soul was not wif me , to be honest , i dunno where did i wander to ,or where hv i been, Losing memory always been mine dream , n yet it not as pretty as i think ...... Living in the small apartment tht seems like my home , alone , kind of freak me out.... The wall of this small hut , is painted wif the colour of sorrow - dull yellow, the colour tht always remind me of death , past , old, n abandoned...Why i`ll hv tis kind of feeling? mayb bcozz the paint all over the wall hv started to fade n separate from the wall ... Isshhh... Mayb tis is juzz my rented house, mayb tis is the old house tht belong to my parents , mayb is the house of mine n ex... mayb , mayb , mayb .. i thought when a person lost his/her memory , they will lost their knowledge, but the fact is, it is wrong.... beside the born to be ability ,like eat, drink, sleep , wear clothes, n take care of urself , the other ability will remove from our soul too...but yet , it still the same....i can still manage to judge the paint tht all around this lonely small space wif my own prejudice ,i can still use the computer and judge the proposal that keep inside the computer memory...seems like , i `m having a pathethic life before although i`m surround by the paint tht represent the artist`s life, culture, and background,bcozz i`m juzz a selfish, self centered bussiness caterpillar tht will only appreciate those "high value"`s piece ...i browse through all the small item tht residences in my home, i browse through the furniture in this space, i check out the neighborhood.....seems like this is typical city apartment tht the residents in this area won`t greet each other......i browse thorugh all the data in file, or picture , or even drama file in the small laptop tht seems like not adapt to this old style hut.....nothing was familiar , nothing can recall the old past me to back...i feel like i`m been put by GOD to tis new environment, to test whether i can adapt wif this new environment, new identity, well , i won`t defeat to this new me , but yet , i can feel something was deprive from me slowly and engulf the memory by the time past ,even though i`m still busy wif the business tht seems to be mine, even though i love the scent of the old style apartment...

Escape always been my dream, be a gypsy always been my whole life ambition, n yet , not as delicious tht it portray .....Y this silly thinking will still residue , even though i dunno what is my name, who is my family, who is my fren, who is the one hv relate to me previously....

The aroma of coffee wif the breathtaking sunset scene calm the soul tht within this miserable body, to wait n leave this world whenever this temporary memory kept the soul to be addicted wif the new environment......

But 1 thing is true , losing memory always make her thrill cozz she can feel the freedom whenever all the thing left behind , n never need 2 look back.......

Plan to Do on this week

2008-10-13T11:26:00.001+08:00

Well , today is 13/10 2008,is autumn`s big day in chinese calendar....but yet...

Therefore make a wish for myself , the thing i need to do before 19/10/2008:

1) Study

2) Finish the editing of publishers

3) Type the info from CT arts designs(my FYP stuff), cozz I scare Mr.Ting will killed me afterwards...

4) can deprive some of the sleepy , so tht can finish all thing...

5) Dismantle my 12 years old study table....

6)Finish the study of my student , so tht i won`t felt stress again towards his exam...

Hope i won`t waste my time again ya....need 2 back to work dy , hv a nice week ya....you

can do it !

The Book Theft

2008-10-10T19:19:00.001+08:00

Today morning, i finished this book within 4 hours....(is an estimation only)i`m agree that i`m a fast reader...wanna self admire again....=p,but the fact is , this book is brilliant , this is the reason tht i can finished it in such a speed!!! even though it was an translation version of the book...but yet , got lots of inspiration from this book .. Dun think i`ll only post my comment whenever i finished a book....i`m not tht kind of ppl that love to write the book`s review , (the book review like those we did during primary school or secondary school...once was my nightmare..) but juzz wanna share good thing with everyone.....alto i`m seems like love to post book review recently........

This book is a story tht the writer create based on his mother`s true experience when she still a children...the Nazi`s terrorism(At least u know who is Hitler gua? if not googling la) which was a way back history and a stranger`s medium to this high technology`s era people....

Did u know tht after the historians made research , they found out tht in the history of mankind, only 20 % years, the human being was in peace....n we r one of those lucky one in the 20%...n yet we dunno how 2 appreciate....

The plot of the story is simple, but yet touched soul.... It describe the bond of the heroin and her parents who adopted her from the simple daily routine tht happened in ours life... It show the contradiction of a human being with the small mistake we make everyday...It spread the message of love , peace and respect throughout the whole story....It reflects the fears of a human being whenever they in the condition of uncertainty or even a static `s condition...It indicates the complication of a human no matter he/she in the phase of peace/war.....

i love the detail and the concepts of the book....LOVE , Peace , and the desire of every human being towards morality / conscious~

i`m glad with the fact tht i`m still young and the life still waiting for me to experience and learn.....NO matter how`s the route will be, i hope i`ll step with hearts and appreciation and bear in mind tht "wat u really can do besides eat , drink, "poo poo", pee, and sleep "

sorry to make u read this bored , long and "serious"`s piece....but this is wat i gain, and wat i felt from today....

Melaka Trip for Shin Wen Bday C`lebration

2008-10-05T01:21:00.002+08:00

Ya...i `m going to melaka on the raya`s day~ to b honest after changing

the destiny from PD to melaka, i`m kind of think not going~ if not bcozz

the face of shin wen so big, i might b lepas kapal terbang~been so

contradiction on the eve of raya....sigh , who ask me ody plan for 3 trip in

advance n after thinking the schedule n money, kind of freak out , i`m

really sorry to Ya Teng , cozz the penang trip kena tunda to next year

january la, not only bcozz of no $ , the main point is i dun dare to leave

KL like tat, when i`m in the trip of melaka, my heart still worried wif the

stuff of holy....i know everyone wil wordless ....but when all the thing

hvn`t finish, u`ll feel the rock on ur heart~even u were on trip...... how`s

the trip , it was funn.... coz can spend some time wif my fren n visit tis

historical place where full of artist , n can take pic as much as i can~~

gua gua gua

but then , i seriously think tat i need 2 purchase a new

camera, coz mine old n small camera ody cannot take pic from the

sun / beam of sun straight forward dy....how sad it is~thanks laine, jy ,

lee ya for organising,

elaine~ *lee yah * * Jy *

thanks the bday gurl -shin wen , if not bcozz ur big face, all of

us won`t b enjoy ,

mr driver - chuan tim - laine`s bf(2 of them grab tis

opportunity 2 pak tou too~~)

n mei san for willing to participate, ...really

long time did not hang out wif her.....btw, cozz she study

phschology now.....every time when she think, will think very

professionally , admire!!!

n the 2 siao di di - the tour guide , if not bcozz

of them, we kind of hard 2 visit melaka la~

n 1 thing so exciting de ... i manage to meet sandy there , the lovely sis

from starbucks, always teach me n help me when i`m working there , she

still the same sis tat i know.....really glad can meet her....

but yet , cannot meet mei chee (uni fren tht industrial training in

melaka ) ..... cozz her place really far la, u know, even the 2nd day of

raya, she work....phew,she so workaholic la~

actually ,i`m not really tht visit enuff melaka la....i did not go mmu

melaka, did not go mahkota parade, did not visit jonker street in

detail...

jonker street...

but i`m content, i can feel melaka in this whole trip which very

diff with the feel when i`m still children...haha~n spend time wif my

dearest fren, tht most important~

penang, when can i visit u??? really wanna hang out wif YT la~

Lovely Friday Nite

2008-09-28T10:19:00.001+08:00

26/ 10/ 2008 , i went to ONE U after work....yess....happynyer....really long

time did not shopp.....go n search for the thing i wantt~~ n then take bus

back to KEPONG n watch "Accuracy of Death" with my sis , really long time

did not went to Cinema ..... is lead by Takeshi Kaneshiro and Fujizi Kazue...

The overall movie was good , at least it help me to clear my mind that spiral

with lots of emotion + work + nonsense + ...........

I gain peace after the movie , with nice actor /actress (all of them are good

looking), nice music - Sunny day , by fujizi kazue , highly recommend ,

The feeling after show : Enjoy ur life peacafully instead of complaining how

the environment unfair to u , u will see the blue sky afterwards~

祝福

2008-09-11T08:54:00.001+08:00

on 7/9 - 9/9 , one of my fren that "migrate" to Singapore have back to

Malaysia and Luckily, we had the chance to meet up....It `s really glad to

meet her , although when organised the meet up , some of small matter

happen but yet it still a nice and funn gathering....From the conversation,

can feel that she still in the process of adapting the life in Singapore, in

my perception , She will seriously endured this process of adapting and

try to find her way in Singapore......And at least working there for 5

years - 8 years??...Cozz she is one of the great person

that well known with her adapability.......I`m really wished her to enjoy

the life in Singapore......The feeling of 离乡背井 really bitter , and this

真的是有苦自己知, tell other , they can only be a listener, cozz the

people that go through is her not us ...... wishing her all the best and

well adapt in SINGAPORE ! Cheers ~

S.H.A.R.E

2011.录

today im terminator

随遇而安

隧道

還是要幸福

Looking for changes

Why so tired?

back

忠.诚

This is not we wanted..

看开

《孟子》二章:鱼我所欲也

challenge ?

Appreciation Note to Evonne

绝处逢生.永不放弃

great day

diet again

“习惯了得到，便忘记了感恩”

11.1.11

手紙・アンジェラ・アキ

So.. what next?

Dec is here

When….

everyone should watch

Happy Deepavali

体验

the messenger

more than words

电影、电视、书籍

back to track

Everyday is a new day

休息是为了走更长远的路

Get Used To..

June is here

休息

rest piece

Pieces of sharing

等

坚持。 信念

Nothing will change the real you

bad mood

diving…

职业

new life

Things to do today

春雨

smell

in the middle of~~

2010

tooth crack

心病

Something,sometimes,somehow

R.A.N.D.O.M

Reminder~

Decided

我不是你想像那麼勇敢

If one day is coming….

Grow = less time for yourself??

无常

LOMO

Lovely Saturday

Hate to be adult

retreat?

i`m grad !

~Impressed~

未来？

For You

today , i hold the hand of a little girl~

gratitude

Fly ~

beyond words

活在当下 Live for your life

Facebooking~

Earth Hour

time pass

Happy Belated bday dear pei ru!

you are my sis!

痊愈??

愿望 - 九把刀

坚持。信念