自己选择的路，跪着爬着也要走完

OK…已经决定了，半年的休息也已经告一段落，既然暂时还是放不下工作，就只能再一

次选择鱼与熊掌都能兼得的决定，已经有第一次的经验，希望这一次能走得更开心，更自在，有些人真的注定当牛一辈子了，当然重点是自己如何平衡，如何安排时间～ 

当然这一次真的要好好储蓄，好好往自己的计划前进，永远长不大的小孩在堂姐出阁的

星期而默默做了的决定上～

Lovely Cousin 幸福满满的出阁，真的很为她开心，这甜姐儿是我姐啊，到底我是修了

什么福气，出世在这样一个可爱的家庭，虽然我们不怎么在一起，因为住得很靠近，也

因为我的家也比较热衷于佛堂而少了耗在一起的时间，但是骨子里我们这家人就是同一

种人，血浓于水，这是改变不了的事实，虽然不像妹这样跟堂姐不时有互动，跟伯父伯

母那么投缘，但是我是打从心里爱着住我家楼下的亲人啊！一直埋怨自己为什么是老

大，但是因为这次堂姐出阁，而惊觉原来自己一直以来就有着这么可爱的亲姐姐，一个

不管天塌下来都还是笑得很甜的姐姐，有时还很迷糊，可爱爆灯，而且非常非常善良漂

亮的姐姐，他真的很像故事里的公主，是真心的赞赏，还有两个喜欢欺负人，但是还是

会有大哥样，不善于表达感情，却其实很负责任，善良的哥哥，打从心里为她嫁了跟她

匹配的好人家觉得开心！！ 希望公主与王子能幸福快乐一辈子！！

原以为自己会因为堂姐结婚了而更为自己迟迟还未到的因缘更担心，但是才发现我原来

一直在跟自由，工作，佛堂谈恋爱 ，自己的时间因为年长而变得更稀有…尽然可以看

开，很难得一下～那个远在金宝的万金，please do visit your sis and congrats her

directly …

洋溢在囍事当中而不愿做决定，却不得不做决定与工作的小朋友上

Bon Bon cat

Happy Birthday!!! Devious holiday really make me a total slacker!

But I did enjoy the yum cha n simple celebration wif u , love

Cozz knowing you will never read tis , hence dare to write tis out

I always surrounded wif lovely ladies , whc shud be feel that is a blessed …

guahahhaha

suddenly feel tht shudnt be so hoping something to happen DESPERATELY..

n learn to be steady like u , lay boon…

^^ may us embrace our life to ultimately everday !!!

2011.录

First Quarter of life will be end on the day after tmr , and coming , will be the glorious 3/4 ‘s moment !!

Wanna arrange my path and make myself clear on what I want on future

I know , the main dish I want is Happiness, Gratitude , Satisfaction

The Goal that want to achieve will be?

1) Become bread-whinner for Family ( Now n progressing )

Progress : 25%    Severity : Mandatory

2) Buying own house ( 2 years )

Progress : 5 %  Severity :Mandatory

3) Healthiness ( to maintain a more toned up + younger body )

Progress : 30 % Severity : High

4) Love Life ( Please God , please , can start ASAP ? I waited so long )

Progress : 1 % Severity : Mandatory

5) Career  : Find own passion that can gain extra income ( can be kickstart on 2012 ? ) beside the main stream job ( object C? )

Progress : 25 % Severity : High

6) Study : Continue on Master after manage to start buying new house and have enough income  ( after 3 years )

Progress : 5 % Severity : Nice to have

7) Invest on own Vegetarian + nice Café + self provide organic vege ( learn to grow vegetable ) 

Progress : 0% Severity : Nice to have , timeline : After 8 years

8) Become volunteer in places that needed ( after gain the house + financial freedom , the first reward to myself ? ) for 6 months?

Progress : 0%

Had overwhelmed with the work + practice , 2 hot potato on hands…

Shall develop myself with different skill instead …. 2 years of cow’s and attitude

training should be enough from now.. Viewing UNICEF link , the scholarship + etc

etc link, really think that I can do more than this to the world…

I shall find a link that can make all these happen… Hmmm.. Hmmmm…

today im terminator

sorry bugs… is time for you to get out of my life …..

Im really deterministic , and don`t ever come back to us!!!

I really mean it ! I really cannot take it any more !!!!

随遇而安

最近，不知道是否是幸福表起了作用，还是越来越老,对身边发生的事情越来越看开，

虽然不至于说时刻处于开心快乐的状态，却是真真实实比之前豁达，很容易为了很简单

的事情觉得开心，快乐！ 可以为了能追韩剧，有时间娱乐自己，而处于亢奋的状态，

看到帅气又已经是熟男的宋承宪，我最爱的韩国女星，金泰希演的连续剧，就一直可以

在粉红色的状态里，哈哈，虽然真的不太觉得公主的戏好看，但是他们在戏里的互动，

让人莞尔，对我来说是我唯一抗压作用的方法！

可以为了因为能准时下班赴约看戏，而为自己鼓舞了整个星期；可以因为有一点空

档，而立刻约朋友们出来，而我那班form6 的朋友，就是那班怎样都会entertain我的

人，总是会回应我，而让我时刻都觉得自己很幸福，

～这，当然归功于Hanying啦，提醒我，想做的事情，就应该努力的去实行，即使很多

时候我都会身不由己，一天除了睡觉的时间，都在面对IPVPN的DATA，可能有时可以在

上班前约朋友出来见面，或者在深夜追击唯一的娱乐，韩剧，连到佛堂也变成奢侈的活

动了，虽然现在的状态不见得很晴朗，甚少运动，加上工作常有的压力氛围，但是每天

每时每刻都觉得，这是何年何日了，为什么就不能游戏人间啊，为什么要这样虐待自

己，环境处境糟糕，更要敞开心，勇于去接受，不能因为环境的糟糕，而自艾自怜，生

活，时刻都充满生机，转机，转眼，这些都会过去，不要这样就错过自己的时光，这些

都是在那一天短暂的休息，整理的结果，已经看清什么对自己重要，完成工作上的任

务，就要储蓄力量，准备好身体，面对明年的终极任务！改变，Thrist for changes!

每一天都这么鼓舞自己，因为知道有祂永远在守护着我，因为知道，什么对自己是重

要，而且会因为做了而觉得很有意义的事情！I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve

forgiven my mistakes, 希望能持续保有现在的状态到这SHIT project完成！ 不，应该

是持续在我这短暂的人生里～让自己平衡，比外在的因素，比一切重要！

songs on 2.45am morning after back from work,nice song to share :)

Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet
They say a few drinks will help you to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if i go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I'm face to face that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting
She'll take me back for sure
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh sometimes love is intoxicating
Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting
Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing

隧道

抬头望着屋外的阳光，蓝天，白云

大自然依然无私的爱着我们，依然为新的一天，划下令人充满希望的面貌

听着《晴天》、《你听得到》，让自己有时间整理回忆

为最近做过的事，看过的人，听过的歌做一番整理

已经有很久没有整理自己的思绪，

还小的时候，多愁善感的我会想太多，让太多阳光，空气，水都与自己绝缘

上了中学，开始思索为了什么而活，因为找不到答案，就好象从来都不会回答

Subjective 的问题，太过适应填鸭的生活，而迷失自己，因为做人的原则就是什么都要

做到最好，不知道自己要什么，就是一个人生最大的污点，觉得人生很晦涩，整个回忆

的画面都是灰色，因为爱钻牛角尖，觉得自己太过险恶，太过不知悔改，但是同时，又

要在众人面前做最好的自己，表面上是个会到佛堂的乖小孩，

事实上，每每无人的时候，就对自己与世界绝望，因为骨子里，我就是没有方向的灵

魂，骨子里我只会为达到别人的期望而活，骨子里就对灰暗过于看重，洁癖似的搽拭污

迹，却让污迹吞噬其他时间

一直到6年前，相信是上天听到我的祷告，让我接触舞颂大自然的美妙，

整个人突然茅塞顿开，觉得人生除了黑白，还是有其他因为折射出来的颜色，

觉得既然来到人世，就要好好跌倒，好好享受人生的过山车，或者既然上了这旅程，

就要好好享受旅程的景象，转个弯，就有意象不到的景象，尤其是在旅途遇到的人,

总会让自己再一次觉得旅途十分好玩

6年不停的做着让自己开心，可能也让别人开心的事情，想在人生最灿烂的时光，献出

最灿烂的自己，忙碌的面对，却因为慢吞吞的我，觉得喘不过气，没有好好让自己

调整步伐，为现实，为梦想做个调整，因而每天总结自己的一天时都会渴望休息。

又是身边的人，让我开始去听自己小时候喜欢聆听的歌，从来没有承认自己喜欢周

杰伦的歌到无可救药，但是回望过去十年的光景，隐约都有他的歌，让听觉带我漫游

时光隧道，星期天早上，在忙碌的日子，整理自己，让自己有的喘息，让自己能沐浴在

上天的大爱，沐浴在阳光，氧气，水，蓝天，白云，血浓于水的相处，沐浴在美丽音符

与文字间，默默祷告自己不要因为忙碌，而忘了为心田的小幼苗浇水，只有踏实，用心

对着大千，才不枉来这世上走一回啊

還是要幸福

Hope you doing well ya , the wish to you ^^